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Saturday, August 20, 2011 at 10:09 PM I feel bad.
Im back. Its been about 6 months! Okay, the reason why I wasnt blogging for awhile was because .... i was just pure LAZY. PIG. And i guess its not just me. I went to one of my friends blog, and she is no better! Then you might be thinking, why the sudden come back? Well. I guess this blog has always been a diary to me. The only reason why i started blogging in 2008 was because i needed to express my thoughts somewhere. So I guess that may be the reason why. But I'm nt gonna recap on what happened for the past 6 months. (I mean,who cares right? XD) I think Im gonna mention the things that are bothering me now. (wait, whocares about this too?) Hmmm okay, relationships has always been a problem for me. I suck at relationships. Last year, I kinda fell in love with this girl, And i guess fell quite deep to the extend of making too many mistakes by becoming jealous easily/ by moving too fast in the relationship. I was so foolish to repeat the same mistake over and over and over again. Till one day, she hated me. I gotta give a standing ovation to those guys out there who make it look easy in a relationship. I guess i just couldnt put up with my emotions and it got the better of me. So I stayed away from her. I didnt want to bother her anymore, and after 3 months I finally gave up. I think she fell in love with another guy? I moved on. Guess its just another lesson learned in life? I kinda felt happier after that. Fast forward to 2011 this year. She broke up with her guy? i think. we both started texting and somehow became close friends Then one day she said she liked me.. * FACE PALM* i dunno if it happens to you guys.. but after being away from all this crush/like/love I kinda lost that feeling. LOLS, okay i know what you're thinking. IM NOT GAY. HAHA. We still continued as friends but it came to a point where she knew that i was not interested in her. Well of course i feel bad.Lets see: She text-ed me everyday. even if i wont reply her. She sent me letters a couple of times. even if she was afraid i wouldnt want it. She baked me cookies.... (=D) But I just i wanted to just be friends. she said she'll wait. .................. A few weeks ago. A friend of mine liked her, and i guess he is still chasing her... ever since then, She stopped texting me, I stopped texting her. I hope she'd accept that friend of mine. HAHA I kinda feel bad that after everything that she has done, I didnt show her any sense of appreciation. I hope she's not hating me right now =x. But i also hope she'll find her Mr. RIGHT. or LEFT. XD I hope shes happy. =D I think I miss you. Labels: JY NJP |
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