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Tuesday, December 6, 2011 at 3:25 PM Jealousy.
Being jealous is normal.
Same goes for being sad,happy,wild,afraid,etc.
I like how all these emotions come in naturally.
You don't have to put in so much effort to laugh
when you're watching that #sosingaporean video part1
There is no "LAUGHING BUTTON" that beeps
when you press it, saying
" HA. HA. HA. Its laughing time~ HA. HA. HA."
You don't have to pretend that you're afraid.
When the expression on your face as you stand
on the edge of the cliff with a Bungee cord,
TELLS IT ALL.
Or like that moment when you're about to receive your exam papers
and the minute you got it, you saw a
BIG. FAT. A1
The teacher announces your achievement to class,
and everyone starts clapping,
animals starts screaming,
and you can't help but smile with so much pride.
These feelings are miniature forms of
physical surprises we get.
Do you know why surprises are so surprising?
Because they are moments that you
never expect anything to happen.
Like on my Birthday which was recently, 22 november,
I posted about never having a Birthday celebration
with my friends before.
http://stringswithinme.blogspot.com/2011/11/birthday.html
and coincidentally, the night after, when i was in Cambodia,
my classmates,ex classmates, were standing outside my Hotel room
like one KOI queue and they called me out
and they surprised me with their awful singing *XD just kidding~*
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~"
and also an awesome Birthday card they made.
I was so surprised. HAHA
Just like I never expected them to give me all that,
all of us will never expect ourselves to be having
this particular feeling at this particular time.
That's why Life is so interesting.
It keeps you guessing, thinking that,
today is gonna be a great day,
and it shocks you with some of the most
unpleasant events.
*SURPRISE!*
HAHA
But when these feelings comes naturally,
You tend to not have any control over it.
Like the moment when you realized that
your guy/girl friend had a crush on you,
he/she have been loving you since Day1
he/she have always been there for you
and the day that friend confessed,
You just don't feel the same way for them.
No matter how much you want to.
There's absolutely no way you can inject Love
into your heart hoping that you'll have feelings for them.
Another relevant feeling, and the one i want to talk about,is
JEALOUSY.
In a friendship, when your best friend starts hanging out with
some other random person more than you,
Jealousy comes.
In a Relationship, when your girlfriend starts chatting with
guys who are better looking and have an awesome personality,
Jealousy comes.
Like all the other feelings, Jealousy comes with a reason,
its only because you're afraid to lose that person.
It shows how important that person is to you.
Jealousy alone is fine.
because everything happens within you.
In Your heart, your mind, your soul.
That's why its okay to feel jealous.
The problem comes only in the actions you take
when you feel jealous.
and because it comes naturally,
You don't have any control over it,
and you'd start reacting in ways you'd regret later.
An analogy for me,
In spiderman 3,
Peter parker happen to get the venom or the black thingy,
and he starts to feel different.
He becomes arrogant, cocky and evil.
Being all that is fine.
BECAUSE I DON'T CARE XD
The problem comes when he starts doing stuff
that is unnecessary that hurts others.
Jealousy can ruin your day,
your opportunity,your EVERYTHING
The more we can understand the consequence
of reacting upon jealousy,
The lesser we'll be wondering in the future
why we were even jealous in the first place.
The reason why I'm blogging about this,
because I've made a terrible mistake.
and that guilt that sets in as i thought about
losing that person,
is insanely depressing.
She means a lot to me,
and yes, I do like her. I love her.
And to her;
if you're reading this,
I'm really sorry.
You say you're not mad, but i know you are...
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