Haven't been posting for a while.
So I've decided to share a story that I have.


Bringing about a change in yourself,
is not easy. AT ALL.
Especially when the change is against the flow of the common
Especially when it is to correct your bad habits.


Most of us change,
because we're constantly affected by the environment
Some of us change,
Because we're constantly affecting the environment.


But either way, changing is challenging.
That is why you have got to have a reason for that change.
A reason you'd believe in.
Not your friends, not your family, nobody.
but you.


And how I figured that out was
because of a mistake I made..........


I did not like it when
I was chosen to be a Councillor.


To you people who are not Councillors,
I'm pretty sure MOST of my Councillor friends
Have rant about being chosen as a Student Councillor.


To my Councillor friends,
If you're still feeling that way,
HOLLA AT ME CUZ IMMA WHIP YOUR ASS.
But...... you can whip mine first. :D
kidding~


You see, I know why you guys don't want to be Councillors,
I had a hard time in my first year in Sec 1 being one too.
And after my first month,
I would hear small little conversations about
people talking SHIT about Councillors.
and then I finally realise that the side effects
of being a Councillor had started sinking in:


1) People start teasing you about your black shoe.
2) Friends will not act the same way
and the worst of all,

3) NO MORE BEING THAT LITTLE DEVIL THAT
YOU ARE. XD


But I was alr in the Council Board.
There's no hey! ho! bye!
There's no backing off.
When i went for the interview
I never actually had the intention to serve the school.
But I had reason.


Back when i was in kindergarten,
My Grandma was the one who took care of me
when my Mom and Dad had to go to work.



All that i can say about myself then,
is that I was an angel.
on the outside XD
Inside me was that little rascal, mischievous devil
just waiting to come out.


one day..
Grandma took my brother,who's just 1 year older,
and me to the nearby supermarket.
PRIME SUPERMARKET.
Yes. The one at Admiralty.
At that time,
One of hand was carrying a plastic bag with
2 prunes in it.
And the other was holding my Grandma's hand.


As we got into the supermarket.
We wondered off and my Grandma started finding what
she needed to buy.
As a kid, or even now, I LOVE SWEETS.
So immediately, i went to the sweets & chocolate section.
Which was further deep in the supermarket.
When i got there I saw that shooting sweet.
Its like you put the small sweet into the shooting thing
and you aim it in your mouth and it shoots out the sweet
when you press the button.


I WANTED THAT.
But I know Grandma wouldn't buy it :(
So I had to device a plan.
I told my brother to help me keep watch.



My hand reached out for that sweet and...
I shoved it in the plastic bag I was carrying.
Me and my brother went back to find my Grandma,
And the instant I found her,
I hand her the plastic bag that i was carrying.
I think she thought that I was tired of carrying it so she took it.
she paid for the groceries, We left.

ME AND MY BRO TAG TEAM
LIKE A BOSS! XD


Guilt didn't even sink in at that time,
not because I didn't know that it was a crime
because I was so gangster!
THUG LIFE!
XD
kidding~


But 2 years after that,
when i was in Primary 2,
A Police group came into our school to give a talk
about Crime and crime prevention.
That's when everything that took place 2 years ago,
started coming back to haunt me.
And i was so afraid.
Yes. no more gangster.


That's why in Primary 3 I decided to become a prefect.
and the promise I made to myself was
"To change."


And i think when I was in secondary school,
all the responsibility and initiative thing that I've picked up
in primary school just came naturally when I was in Sec1
and thats probably the reason why I got chosen.
and I accepted the interview only because of that promise.


Up till now, I still can remember this because
it was a reason I had,
it was a promise to myself.
And that's why even with all the SHIT side effects,
I actually enjoyed being a Councillor


Because it brought me to who I am today :)



The problem wasn't the mistake I made,
It was the habit of doing it again.
That was what I was afraid of.


Its only when you've found a reason for doing sth,
whether you like it or not.
You'll still want to do it again.


That is my reason for being a Councillor.
That is my reason for a change.
Whats yours?
Please don't give up on me. :(