Music is guidance

The ones who've been there for you.

2012-01-29T14:48:00.001+08:00

Friends.

Can't deny that they're just so important.
They don't come around very often.
It's not like when you're walking down the street and you see a random someone,
"HEY HI HO"
Bam! you two become friends.
No. It doesn't work that way. Unless you're an idiot. LOL
Because making friends also means investing trust.
Believe it or not, there's gonna be that one day when you're gonna have
to share your problems with that friend whether you like it or not.
And if you're gonna unconsciously share it with a random stranger then...
YOU'RE AN IDIOT. Literally.

One of the amazing things I find about friends is that
all of them are Unique.
You can't find a friend having the exact personality as another.
If you think of it in a small group,
like in school or your work place,
then definitely its obvious that you can't find someone that's the same.
But if you really think of it in terms of couple of years later,
when you've meet hundreds of new people,
you'll realise that there's really no one quite like that particular friend.

There's always that one friend you can always turn to when you have problems.
Then there's one that you know no matter how hard you try,
you can never go about a day with them without laughing.
Then there's one that has a REALLY REALLY Irritating flaw
that annoys the CRAP out of you but you just seem to like them anyway.
And there's so many more..

As I'm going through the different types of friends,
different names starts to appear in your head YEAH?
Oh c'mon if its a NO, that only means YOU GOT NO FRIENDS.
LOL JK
or maybe you just got too many.

But no matter how different all your friends can be.
They're all there for a reason.
I know this sounds crazy,
But you don't really get to choose your friends.
You just meet that person by fate and ever since then,
the two of you took off instantly as friends.
Plain and simple.
Its not like you go around surveying
"hmmm you're smart, ok you be my friend"
"hmmm you're hairy , ok you're not my friend"
"hmmm you're 1 cm taller than me, ok you're not my friend."
"hmmm you love hairy russian dudes? ok you're my friend"
.......right?
LOL

So as much as you wanna Troll and deny, XD
my smartass can conclude that,
They're all there for a reason.
Like what Swoozie mentioned,
the saying "everything happens for a reason"
is only for things that happened that you can't control
like someone entering your life, or an accident that occurred.
Not for example,you decided to hook up with somebody and say
" Everything happens for a reason."
The friends you meet are definitely there
to teach/show you something about Life that you never knew.

Just lay back one day and think about the people around you
that have made an impact in your life.
I always believe that the people around you,
is gonna be the mirror of your character.
So what if, you didn't meet that one friend?
Would you still be who you are now?

Then with the existence of friends,
There's also gonna be people who hate you, gossip about you, betray you,
People who's gonna make your life miserable.
Its funny how people in the "hater category"
don't even know that they're hating.
LOL

Its when no matter how you try to please them,
they just won't stop hating on you.
They just wanna bring you down.
And 2 ways on how people would usually react to that.
1.) They blow up like the CrazyAuntieOnTheMRT and starts @#!&%@!
or
2.) Their inner self, just tears apart.

What both reactions have in common is that,
They will start losing themselves.
They'll stop being who they really were before,
-Cheerful, Enthusiastic, Positive.
They either become more hot-tempered
feeling like the whole world is against them
or become really depressed and stressed, feeling like
its all their fault.

And You can't blame them for feeling that way either.
It's never a nice feeling when someone
betrays you/gossips about you/hates you.
and it's even harder to ignore everything that's happening
When your friends sees all that is going on,
they'll surely try to comfort you and help you.

All I'm saying is if you can't solve the problem by yourself,
you definitely need to get help from a close friend to assess the situation.
Don't try to be captain underpants and try to solve the problem yourself
after failing the first time.
You'll just end up hurting yourself.
Just Face it, The close friends around sees the situation
in a more composed and calm manner than you do.
So it will be in your best interest to listen to them.

Then I hear people saying,
" I wish people like them don't exist!"
or
" I wish they can just eat shit and die" <<<< LOL
Don't you think the world
would be a scarier place without people like them?
HOLLA DON'T GET ME WRONG,
I also detest people like them,
but imagine life without haters, betrayers,
Won't everyone be so Naive?
No one will understand the value of trust
because everybody would, by then, trust anyone or everyone!

I remember reading a book having an analogy for this concept.
" Pain is an unpleasant feeling. But on the positive note, without pain,
You could've gone home without realising that you've actually lost a foot."
HAHA

So...Mr.PositivePants here can now say that both your friends and haters
are really important in Life. WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT :p

I have had one of the best 3 years of my life in school .
I remember when I was in sec 1
I already saw a lot of things about the school that I didn't like.
And I have endure 4 more years of this?!
WTS.
I asked my Graduating senior if he ever regretted joining this school,
and he was like
" LOL! OF COURSE NOT LA I met so many brothers here!"
I didn't really accept that answer back then,
but right now, I finally understand.
I met one of the greatest friends that I could have ever met.
They definitely made my school life a hell of a Roller Coaster ride.
A fun one. :D

I remember setting a goal for the year.
The goal was like a direction I want to see myself moving to.
Like for example,
if my goal was never to spout out any vulgarities,
then the whole year i have to be on that line.
My goal for last year was
"Gentleman of the year." LOL
Its kinda like a personal self improvement thing.
But this year, the goal would be
"Appreciation."

For the past 3 years in WGS,
I've kinda taken those friends who have actually
helped me a lot along the way.
I was never close to these friends but when I needed help,
they're always there.
So this year, I'm really gonna show appreciation to them.
Hoping that its not too late!

Last one before I end off the post.
My younger sister and older brother.
HAHA
My sister irritates me A LOT. But I kinda like her a little.
BUT SHE'S STILL ANNOYING XD
and my brother...
Well he's just another Handsome dude I look up to XD
Don't really talk to them very often,
but I'm finding time, here and there,to catch up on things. :)
HAHA

Guess its really time to show my appreciation
before they're gone.
I still love you. Hope you still feel the same way about me.
If you do, please let me know. cause I'm really dying in doubts.

For the first time.

2012-01-14T21:25:00.000+08:00

HEY HO LEGGO!
Haven't posted anything for quite awhile.
Since school has alr started, its really difficult
to find the time to blog.
You know they say,
" The Bad thing is that Time Flies,
The Good thing is that you're the Pilot"
I think for me,
I don't see how the "Good thing"
is in any way beneficial for me.
LOL

If I had a chance,
I would just crash whatever I'm piloting.
Because in our hurry to chase after Time,
we only care about how we want things to be in the future.
we forget about how things could not have been in the present.
we kinda miss out the little things in Life.
The little things,
like your parents love that you couldn't see.
like your friends care despite showing the least gratitude.
like the difficult times you struggled through that only made you stronger.
It's these little things that could not have been there,
It's these little things that we take for granted,
only to realise its existence once its gone.
Appreciation is huge :)

I had a great start to my school year this year.
Although it was getting a little, JUST A LITTLE,
annoying when ALL the teachers in every subject,
have to constantly remind us about the O levels we have this year,
as if its not hindering us at all. LOL
I kinda feel that the teachers are more excited than the students.
HAHA
Maybe they've seen so many batches of students not performing at
their highest potential which the teachers saw in them.
Watching my seniors taking their O level results the other day
made me really nervous about the examinations,
because from the statistics and in comparison to my goals,
I really have to work really really hard.
I made a deal with Joshua that whatever he gets for L1R4 this year,
I have to beat him with my L1R5.
HAHA I really hope I don't forget this. LOL

Other than being able to see all that familiar faces again,
especially Ms. MengTong Lumie haha! Such a unique partner!
But school had 1 more event that I was really excited for,
partly because its my last SC event in Woodgrove.
The Sec 1 Orientation camp :D

Had a lot of plans for this camp.
Now that Hasif is also around to be an OGL,
we gotta make things more interesting. hehehe.
E.g.
We had a discussion as to who be the toilet manager
if the sec one's were taking a shower at the shower room.
Because we cannot allow them to take their sweet sweet time
we have to rush them.
In case if sneaky little Hasif and I were doing toilet manager,
we had an idea,
we would bang on the cubical doors
*BANG BANG BANG*
Me : " OI 8 mins is all you get! Then get out!"
8mins later and if they don't come out,
* Hasif takes out bucket of toy cockroaches *
We would angry bird all those little toy insects into the cubical
MUHAHAHAHA

I had a lot of plans for this camp because,
of the previous unpleasant experiences as an OGL.
Don't get me wrong, being an OGL is FUN
HELL FUN >:D
But last time, I was inexperienced.
Though there were successful moments,
those failures never fail to haunt me HAHA.
Its my 5th time being an OGL
and I'm pretty sure I'm ready hehehe.

After the past experiences of being an OGL,
if you're gonna be one,
it would be in your best interest to have ready
all your nonsensical cheers.
I'm not referring to those performing cheers thats like
" T2! T2! is the best!!"
No. Not that one.
I'm referring to what I call "defense cheer".
something like:

" GIVE THEM ONE WHATEVER CLAP"
or
"GIVE THEM ONE LAME CLAP!"

" I SAY MILO YOU SAY DINOSAUR
I SAY DINOSAUR YOU SAY EXTINCT
I SAY EXTINCT YOU SAY YOU STINK!"

HAHA THATS ALL YOU GET!
can't let you in to all of my defense cheer XD
hehehe
Last year in 2011 when I was the OGL of class 1E1,
I thought I was already prepared to handle the class,
until when I was dragged into this war cheer.
and i failed to defend my class.
I failed.
TERRIBLY.
Hohoho so this year, it ain't going down like that again!

This was taken at the start of the camp.
One fact.
Most of the SC's here have a common interest
"To be OGL's so don't need to attend class"
XD
CONFIRM PLUS CHOP.

I really thought everyone was energetic.
Until I saw this.

LOL

If I could remember clearly,
Feng kun, Hasif and me were the only ones
taking down notes about the camp LOL
SC AH! CAMP HAVEN'T START ALR WANT LEPAK!
#you siao! XD
haha kidding~

I won't be typing about what exactly happened in the camp.
Because J.K. ROWLING will kill me if I beat the length
of her Harry potter series with my 2 day 1 night stories!
JK k I know That was lame.
But I'll be sharing with you guys,
the special part of this camp for me.

Ever since last year's Sec 1 Orientation campfire night,
I couldn't really enjoy all the other campfires that I've participated after that.
YOU KNOW WHY?
BECAUSE HOLLA IMMA TELL YOU WHY NOW.
LOL ( k that's more lame than the first one.)
Haiz. I don't where to start. I wish I was in your school.
That way I could really really understand how you feel.

Long story cut short,
I was assigned to be the Campfire Emcee last year
and when I got that duty, I thought it was really simple.
and I screwed it.
Rachel was my partner Emcee last year,
and she felt the same way too.
The feeling was kinda like
embarrassment + Disappointment + more embarrassment.
Alumni s were there last year,
seniors were there too.
Everyone thought Rachel and I would do a good job,
but... we screwed it.
Fantastic.
After that night,
that campfire experience totally haunt
the rest of my other campfire nights.
I don't know whats on your mind anymore.
I'm trying really hard not to say too much but

So guess what came back to haunt me.
Yeah you got it.
I got assigned to be campfire Emcee again.
I was shocked at first because after what happened last year,
it would be crazy if the teachers asked me to be the Emcee again.
But luckily this year, there's like 6 Emcees
Rachel , Veeva , Shermandy, Kah hao , Amirul and Me.
Because of that I was actually not that nervous as
if anything would have cock up, i still got people to back me up.
I also don't want to give you the impression like i don't care.
Because I really do care.Worried about what you're going through.

Before campfire night started,
I wanted to make the campfire less awkward,more hype.
I was singing and dancing around the campfire area
LIKE A MAD MAN.
thats before the campfire even started LOL.
In the end camp fire went really smooth and the 6 of us
ROCK-ED IT WOOOHOOO! OH YEAH!
Hurts to see someone you really like being hurt by someone else
and you just can't do anything to help that person.

The class I took was 1T2 and each class was accompanied by 4 OGLs

which means other than me, there was
Aruni, Joseph and Jarrel.
They did an awesome job getting the class together
when preparing for the campfire performance while I was away
preparing for the campfire Emcee.
With their AWESOME leadership,
T2 won 2nd place WOOHOO :D
Sorry for being such a nagg the past few days
I'll stop :)

I felt so good after the entire camp.
Mainly because it was a major success and also
because I've overcome my fear of being the campfire Emcee.
You have no idea how tired I was after this photo was taken.
I was actually still pretty hyper cuz it just ended
but as I was walking home, the "shag-ness" started kicking in.
LOL
If you ever need someone to chat with,
I'm always here alright :)

Walking back home and I kept about this SC event being my last.
Mixed feelings.
I must say, its from all these SC events that taught me A LOT.
I failed so many times in SC,
and its after so many experiences,
I finally succeeded.
Glad that I didn't give up and chicken-ed off halfway.
Looking back, I feel really glad that I was accepted into SC
when I was in secondary 1.
I wouldn't be who I am today if it weren't for the people
I got to know in SC and things i got to do there.
Student Councillor ROCKS :D
Hope one day you'd reply my texts :)
and go back to how we used to chat :D
ILoveYou

A new year?

2011-12-29T14:23:00.000+08:00

One of the things I usually do during the last few days
of December is to read the Archives in my Blog.
And by archives I mean,
Archives of the current year of 2011 and also
particularly the archive of December 2010.

HELL NO I AINT GOING BACK TO
THE ARCHIVES IN 2008 / 2009 LOL
* embarrassing*

If you have a blog, its really nice to re-read
all the nonsense you wrote in your blog for the past
2- 3 years?
Blogging has always been a place for me
to articulate my thoughts.
Kinda like those reasons why people have diaries.
A reflection paradise. HAHA.
But that wasn't the reason why I started blogging.

I started blogging in 2008
and back then, Blogging was the trend.
I was influenced greatly by the number of my friends
who have blogs and so I decided to try it out.
Blogging for me, then became more of
" hoping people would come visit your blog."
But I guess with the grand entrance of
Facebook and Twitter, blogging got lesser attention
And for a period , I stopped blogging too.
I think months after that, I re-entered blogging
with the intention of reflecting.
I believe most of us have participated in camps of any kind.
and most of them have a reflection time where they would
ask you to jot down your thoughts and feelings.
Yeah. Blogging to me, became like that.
AND TRUST ME, BLOGGING HELPS PSYCHOLOGICALLY.

HAHA wont elaborate further.
Anyways, 2 days left before the New Year 2012!
I think I'm gonna hang out with my friends
during the day of the Countdown HAHA
So I have got to finish all my Homework before this SAT!
CHIONG~
I've also thought of my New Year Resolution.
and this time I'm really want to accomplish this.
I have in total of 4 resolutions:

1. To achieve at least 5 A's for O lvl
2. To get into Grade 4 for guitar before the end of next year.
3. Stay committed to Workouts!
4. Be stronger emotionally.

Next year December 2012, Imma re-read this again.
And lets see what happens! Excited~

False Hopes

2011-12-28T19:23:00.002+08:00

You know when you really want something,
you'd do anything to get it. Right?
But what if you reach to that point,
where things are just not within your control
and that you just can't do anything at all?

Let's say you want to impress someone,
you would find out what that person likes and dislikes,
you would spend time to understand that person's style,
you would try ways to make that person feel special.

you'd do your best to help her up when she's down.
you'd be far more patient than ever when she gives
a negative response and
you'd be there for her when she needs you.

You do all that because you feel something for her.
Because you know its worth it.

You thought you had it all figured out.
You thought that she felt the same way as you.
You thought that you were building sth strong.

Sometimes it ends up as the happily ever after.
Sometimes you alr knew from the start that it wouldnt work out.
Sometimes its that feeling after you've tried again and again
and you thought that this time, things would turn out differently
but you still end up crashing down in disappointment.

Its that point when you feel shocked.
That point when you feel like you're just not good enough.
That point when you can't do anything at all.

False hopes.

Time is running out.
Holidays are ending and it's gonna be a busy year next year.
Hope it all ends well.
"God only gives his toughest battles to his toughest soldiers"

If you still need time, its okay. :)

Merry Christmas

2011-12-25T23:29:00.000+08:00

So..... HEY!
(awkward) :B
HAHA! Merry Christmas!
I know if you're reading this right now,
it goes to show that you're #FOREVER ALONE!
So get your ass off the internet and
enjoy Christmas with your family and friends!
No?
What do you mean No?
Not turning off your comp?
Me neither :B

Haha! My family don't really celebrate Christmas.
So every year, when you guys are HOHOHO-ing
I'm just at home ZZZZZZZZ-ing.
LIKE A PIG! :D
But this year, just to get into that Christmas spirit
and also to enjoy the last few days of the "Holidays",
I've decided to celebrate Christmas Eve with a few friends!
And to be frank, even after celebrating Christmas Eve
I still haven't got into that Christmas spirit yet.
BUT EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED YESTERDAY,
WAS AWESOME. =D

I woke up yesterday morning at around 9.30 am
feeling extremely lethargic and lazy.
You know in the morning,when you're still in bed
and someone tries to wake you up,
and you have to do your signature move
the "roll-to-ignore + uuhhhhh 5 more mins moan" ?
Yeah that was how i was like. Just that
no one was trying to wake me up.
Because I was alr wide awake.
BUT I JUST DON'T WANT TO GET OUT OF BED!

So alr with a Zombie Mind in the morning on Christmas eve,
I was later called by my Dad to help out in
painting my sister's room.
Btw, painting, ISN'T EASY AT ALL!
Its a good work out for all you people
who wants to lose weight.
Im serious.
Gotta give credit to those bangala workers
who paints building.
So by the time I'm finished with painting it was alr 5.30 pm.
And I'm exhausted like mad.
I had the least satisfying bath because I had to rush
to meet my friends at 6.30 pm.
and you may think
SINCE YOU'RE TIRED, why not just don't go out?
HAHA|
1. I alr told my friends I was going
2. she was there.
>.<

On the way to town with my friends.
I was looking at the train map and thinking
" what are the odds of me meeting her? hmm"
I did ask her where she was at but she didnt want to tell me.
But I knew that was my chance to meet her.
SO I GOTTA FIND HER!
We dropped off at somerset because my friends wanted to go
to the flea market at SCAPE :D
At that time I remembered she started
dropping hints on the location of where she's at.
saying " AHH ITS REALLY HOT IN HERE!"
and instantly my mind clicked.
There's only one place that could fit that hint.
The Flea Market.
What a coincidence. Or... Fate ? :B
HAHA

As we were walking over to the Flea Market,
my friends alr knew that my major motive was finding her
and they're interested too.
because they wanted to meet her!
I told one of the my friend who is a girl,
let's just call her Grace,
I told Grace to pretend to be the girl I used to like
and be real close to me HAHA!
My attempt in making her Jealous! XD

When we reached the Flea Market,
Grace didn't know how she looked like so,
the whole time i had to keep looking,
I even turned my head 360 degrees
to make sure i didn't miss out on anyone there. LOL jk.
I was in alert mode.
But of course, I didn't want to look like someone idiot
searching for a beautiful girl hiding in the Flea market,
I wanted to be natural.
So my alert mode was not as alert?
and because of that, she saw me first.
and i was... shocked.
I looked every where. Still couldn't find her.
FAIL.

LOL In disappointment, my friends and I head back to
Artease to have our "dinner"
To add on to my disappointment, she told me that
she's "going home soon" because
her friend had to go home and she wanted to accompany her.
BUT THEN
She suddenly said she's walking back to Burger King because
her friend lost her wallet and they're hoping to find it there.
At that time, I was still in Artease and i turned around in my sit,
and i pointed, Burger King is just there...
2 shops away.
Before I could even reply " OK IM GONNA FIND YOU"
She texted me " we're now at Burger King"
hmmmmm it kinda seems like she wants me to find her XD
HAHA!

SO.. as I walked into Burger King
my heart was pounding really fast XD
HAHAHA
And there she was.
at last, I've found her.
And my god, she looks really beautiful.
I followed her and her friends around the area
in our "adventure" to find the lost wallet.
A lot of back and forths and awkward conversations.
Actually the awkward conversations came from me
cuz I kinda asked weird questions. LOL
BUT CANT HELP IT! I WAS NERVOUS YO!
and I really wanted to talk to her. HAHA

In the end, we ended up at Yishun's Police station
to file a report on the lost wallet.
LOL
If I could record a video of them at the Police station
making a report on the LOST WALLET,
I won't name the video " Report on lost of wallet"
I'll name it "Kopitiam session with Police Hunk"
LOL
they were laughing and chatting with the
Police guy rather than making a report. HAHA
The serious atmosphere just vanished the minute
they started making the report.
HAHA

After that, we encountered some strange things
and it was LOL
HAHA
One of her friends had to go home first
so after she left, me her and her friend,
the 3 of us hanged out at Mac Donald and
we just starting chatting.
Conversations got better.
She asked me questions and told me a lot of things.
HAHA

We took a cab home and I had to send her to her doorstep.
I was actually afraid that the ride with her would be awkward
but it wasn't! HAHA
THANK GOD SHE'S NOT SHY OR AT THAT TIME
I'LL DIE.
woah that rhymes haha.
So when we reached her house,
I accompanied her up the lift.

In the lift, that time, we're quiet and she's looking at her phone
I didn't want to miss that chance.
But I was also afraid and nervous >.<
I went over to her and pretend to see what she's looking at in her phone
and then... =)
I felt really great. I felt in love haha and it was like my first time. HAHA
I wonder how you felt then.. >.<

I sent her to her doorstep and after that went home with
like my BIGGEST SMILE EVER. :D
Recollecting everything that happened that night,
I couldn't help but smile XD
I couldn't sleep when I got home haha
that night with her was the best Christmas present .
HAHA
I hope I didn't ruin the impression you have of me..=I

This Christmas Eve has got to be the highlight of my Holidays
I got to know Xue Teng and Qing Wen
and I met her!! WOOHOO
HAHA :)
So..How did you spend your Christmas Eve?

Regrets

2011-12-19T19:33:00.002+08:00

Holidays are ending soon.
The period where I rush my Homework.
Yeah Yeah,I know.
You're with me in this too right? XD
Okay then,
GET YOUR EYEBALLS OFF THIS WEB PAGE,
AND GET STARTED!
kidding~

Every year at this time when I'm left with only
2 week before the school starts,
in the midst of rushing all these undone work,
I'm thinking, why didn't I start to do all these earlier.
HAHA
Bad decision making.

I bet some of you who have completed all your homework
are now like KINGS
kkkkkkkk fine,
for all you ladies, QUEENS.
Because a lot of people would be begging for your answers!
And you would sit on that modern throne of yours
laughing to yourself.
LIKE A BOSS.

Its a great feeling when you make the right decisions.
and everything turns out PERFECT.
But what happens when you don't?
Because 7 times out of 10,
I make bad decisions.
And even now, like recently,
I screwed up.

And after you thought that screwing up was the end
of your worst nightmare,
all the blaming, scolding, mocking, gossiping
takes place.
Its not like you wanted to screw up,
Its not like you weren't prepared,
Its not like you planned all that to happen.

And in the process of all that,
Quarrels, fights, break-ups happen.
Your friends starts gossiping about you.
Your crush hates you.
And its not like you've got no one to turn to,
Its just that there's no one close enough to you
to understand and give you advice.
You feel
torn-ed,
Hurt,
Lost,
tired.
and it all revolves around
making Bad decisions.

Ever felt that way before?
Well. I have.
It sucks doesn't it?

I remember a quote saying
" The hardest part is not making the decision,
Its living with it."
Back then, I could never really relate to the quote,
I never understood how a decision
could haunt you.
But now I know.

I've made a lot of Bad Decisions recently,
And I've cause many problems
to my friends and especially her.

Saying sorry won't help change a thing.
I guess in this society you just gotta learn to
clean the mess you've made alone.
Well all these are just part and parcel of
learning to live life
aye GOD?
I guess if all these problems doesn't come now,
it'll hit right at me sooner or later.
and I don't want it to be the time
when the stress levels are extremely high.
SO THANK YOU GOD!~

After all,
"If you can't live with the decision you've made,
go make another one."
I can feel that you're gone.

A reason for a Change

2011-12-10T15:37:00.001+08:00

Haven't been posting for a while.
So I've decided to share a story that I have.

Bringing about a change in yourself,
is not easy. AT ALL.
Especially when the change is against the flow of the common
Especially when it is to correct your bad habits.

Most of us change,
because we're constantly affected by the environment
Some of us change,
Because we're constantly affecting the environment.

But either way, changing is challenging.
That is why you have got to have a reason for that change.
A reason you'd believe in.
Not your friends, not your family, nobody.
but you.

And how I figured that out was
because of a mistake I made..........

I did not like it when
I was chosen to be a Councillor.

To you people who are not Councillors,
I'm pretty sure MOST of my Councillor friends
Have rant about being chosen as a Student Councillor.

To my Councillor friends,
If you're still feeling that way,
HOLLA AT ME CUZ IMMA WHIP YOUR ASS.
But...... you can whip mine first. :D
kidding~

You see, I know why you guys don't want to be Councillors,
I had a hard time in my first year in Sec 1 being one too.
And after my first month,
I would hear small little conversations about
people talking SHIT about Councillors.
and then I finally realise that the side effects
of being a Councillor had started sinking in:

1) People start teasing you about your black shoe.
2) Friends will not act the same way
and the worst of all,

3) NO MORE BEING THAT LITTLE DEVIL THAT
YOU ARE. XD

But I was alr in the Council Board.
There's no hey! ho! bye!
There's no backing off.
When i went for the interview
I never actually had the intention to serve the school.
But I had reason.

Back when i was in kindergarten,
My Grandma was the one who took care of me
when my Mom and Dad had to go to work.

All that i can say about myself then,
is that I was an angel.
on the outside XD
Inside me was that little rascal, mischievous devil
just waiting to come out.

one day..
Grandma took my brother,who's just 1 year older,
and me to the nearby supermarket.
PRIME SUPERMARKET.
Yes. The one at Admiralty.
At that time,
One of hand was carrying a plastic bag with
2 prunes in it.
And the other was holding my Grandma's hand.

As we got into the supermarket.
We wondered off and my Grandma started finding what
she needed to buy.
As a kid, or even now, I LOVE SWEETS.
So immediately, i went to the sweets & chocolate section.
Which was further deep in the supermarket.
When i got there I saw that shooting sweet.
Its like you put the small sweet into the shooting thing
and you aim it in your mouth and it shoots out the sweet
when you press the button.

I WANTED THAT.
But I know Grandma wouldn't buy it :(
So I had to device a plan.
I told my brother to help me keep watch.

My hand reached out for that sweet and...
I shoved it in the plastic bag I was carrying.
Me and my brother went back to find my Grandma,
And the instant I found her,
I hand her the plastic bag that i was carrying.
I think she thought that I was tired of carrying it so she took it.
she paid for the groceries, We left.

ME AND MY BRO TAG TEAM
LIKE A BOSS! XD

Guilt didn't even sink in at that time,
not because I didn't know that it was a crime
because I was so gangster!
THUG LIFE!
XD
kidding~

But 2 years after that,
when i was in Primary 2,
A Police group came into our school to give a talk
about Crime and crime prevention.
That's when everything that took place 2 years ago,
started coming back to haunt me.
And i was so afraid.
Yes. no more gangster.

That's why in Primary 3 I decided to become a prefect.
and the promise I made to myself was
"To change."

And i think when I was in secondary school,
all the responsibility and initiative thing that I've picked up
in primary school just came naturally when I was in Sec1
and thats probably the reason why I got chosen.
and I accepted the interview only because of that promise.

Up till now, I still can remember this because
it was a reason I had,
it was a promise to myself.
And that's why even with all the SHIT side effects,
I actually enjoyed being a Councillor

Because it brought me to who I am today :)

The problem wasn't the mistake I made,
It was the habit of doing it again.
That was what I was afraid of.

Its only when you've found a reason for doing sth,
whether you like it or not.
You'll still want to do it again.

That is my reason for being a Councillor.
That is my reason for a change.
Whats yours?
Please don't give up on me. :(

Jealousy.

2011-12-06T15:25:00.001+08:00

Being jealous is normal.

Same goes for being sad,happy,wild,afraid,etc.

I like how all these emotions come in naturally.

You don't have to put in so much effort to laugh

when you're watching that #sosingaporean video part1

There is no "LAUGHING BUTTON" that beeps

when you press it, saying

" HA. HA. HA. Its laughing time~ HA. HA. HA."

You don't have to pretend that you're afraid.

When the expression on your face as you stand

on the edge of the cliff with a Bungee cord,

TELLS IT ALL.

Or like that moment when you're about to receive your exam papers

and the minute you got it, you saw a

BIG. FAT. A1

The teacher announces your achievement to class,

and everyone starts clapping,

animals starts screaming,

and you can't help but smile with so much pride.

These feelings are miniature forms of

physical surprises we get.

Do you know why surprises are so surprising?

Because they are moments that you

never expect anything to happen.

Like on my Birthday which was recently, 22 november,

I posted about never having a Birthday celebration

with my friends before.

http://stringswithinme.blogspot.com/2011/11/birthday.html

and coincidentally, the night after, when i was in Cambodia,

my classmates,ex classmates, were standing outside my Hotel room

like one KOI queue and they called me out

and they surprised me with their awful singing *XD just kidding~*

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~"

and also an awesome Birthday card they made.

I was so surprised. HAHA

Just like I never expected them to give me all that,

all of us will never expect ourselves to be having

this particular feeling at this particular time.

That's why Life is so interesting.

It keeps you guessing, thinking that,

today is gonna be a great day,

and it shocks you with some of the most

unpleasant events.

*SURPRISE!*

HAHA

But when these feelings comes naturally,

You tend to not have any control over it.

Like the moment when you realized that

your guy/girl friend had a crush on you,

he/she have been loving you since Day1

he/she have always been there for you

and the day that friend confessed,

You just don't feel the same way for them.

No matter how much you want to.

There's absolutely no way you can inject Love

into your heart hoping that you'll have feelings for them.

Another relevant feeling, and the one i want to talk about,is

JEALOUSY.

In a friendship, when your best friend starts hanging out with

some other random person more than you,

Jealousy comes.

In a Relationship, when your girlfriend starts chatting with

guys who are better looking and have an awesome personality,

Jealousy comes.

Like all the other feelings, Jealousy comes with a reason,

its only because you're afraid to lose that person.

It shows how important that person is to you.

Jealousy alone is fine.

because everything happens within you.

In Your heart, your mind, your soul.

That's why its okay to feel jealous.

The problem comes only in the actions you take

when you feel jealous.

and because it comes naturally,

You don't have any control over it,

and you'd start reacting in ways you'd regret later.

An analogy for me,

In spiderman 3,

Peter parker happen to get the venom or the black thingy,

and he starts to feel different.

He becomes arrogant, cocky and evil.

Being all that is fine.

BECAUSE I DON'T CARE XD

The problem comes when he starts doing stuff

that is unnecessary that hurts others.

Jealousy can ruin your day,

your opportunity,your EVERYTHING

The more we can understand the consequence

of reacting upon jealousy,

The lesser we'll be wondering in the future

why we were even jealous in the first place.

The reason why I'm blogging about this,

because I've made a terrible mistake.

and that guilt that sets in as i thought about

losing that person,

is insanely depressing.

She means a lot to me,

and yes, I do like her. I love her.

And to her;

if you're reading this,

I'm really sorry.

You say you're not mad, but i know you are...

Perfection

2011-12-02T11:59:00.001+08:00

I Like that word.

Perfection.

Everyone's chasing it.

Everyday in school, there are so many and really SO MANY

people working so damn hard just to get to the level of perfection.

Students, Teachers, Canteen stall owners, Cleaners.....

ALL OF THEM

HAHA

Sometimes be it a normal school day or an Exam week,

when we happen to walk pass a class with ALL the hardworking students,

You would see all of them with their GAME FACES on.

They would be gripping their pens LIKE A BOSS

The minute the teacher gives the "You may start now",

its Pandemonium everywhere.

Everyone starts making that oh-so-irritating noise from their correction tapes

and scribbling their chicken scratch all over the paper

page after page after page.

You look at them at glance thinking :

WOAH CONFIRM PLUS CHOP A1 STUDENTS.

and a few weeks later, when the exam results arrive,

you don't need some round mystic ball that can tell the future,

because its always:

BAM!

BIG FAT A1

Sometimes you get to point where you start questioning yourself on

"why aren't I as diligent as them."

...........................

some of us after that would start looking up to these people

as a source of inspiration.

"From now on, Imma work my ass off and hope that one day,

I'd be as successful as them."

XD ( but some of us we say it,but we don't do it)

*Don't worry I'm like that sometimes too XD shhhhh*

..............................

Different people sees success differently

and personally for me, success is when someone becomes

a man of value.

So once I can be that wise,optimistic, positive thinking person

who don't give a shit about all the insults,gossips that i hear

from haters, then ill be successful :)

But That is only success alone.

Perfection... its totally different.

I don't know how you guys see perfection.

But From what i noticed,

to a lot of people,their perception of

perfection is like being successful at a same standard given.

Like when one day you've succeeded in becoming

that wise,optimistic person.

but you're not as wise as Will smith,

but you're not as optimistic as Adande,

and just because you're not on the same standard of success as them,

You call yourself not perfect?

For example,

You're suppose to host a party and you want that party to be

as perfect as John's party, the one that everyone loved to go to.

So you put all your thoughts and time into the planning,

you do all the dry runs, confirmations after confirmations.

and you hope that it'll be that perfect party every one loves.

In the end, it was successful.

Everyone had a good time,

there was dancing, singing, stripping XD LOL

But just because the party wasn't like John's.

and Not everyone loved the party as much as his.

You called your party "not perfect."

.......................................

HAHA

The person who is suppose to set the standard

is you.

NOT SOME Hollywood superstar

NOT SOME Famous Singer

NOT SOME Rich person.

I think that a lot of us are always so depressed

because we get too caught up in trying to be perfect

that we forgot about what we've alr succeeded in the process.

You don't have to be perfect.

Just be yourself.

That is why they say " Nobody's perfect."

All I want as a friend or as a lover is just your care :D

Because there was never a same standard for success :D

and I haven't lost interest in you :)

Expectations

2011-11-30T16:32:00.001+08:00

Don't you find it nice to look back once in a while

and think about how different you are now

compared to a few years back?

Most of us,

enjoy being who we are now.

Probably because we're so different in

who we are,

how we think about things,

and what we would do.

Probably because,

Life now is more meaningful and memorable.

Probably because,

we've actually changed for the better.

I'm sure all of us had some embarrassing moments

in our "childhood".

And its always funny when we look at it from the future.

NEVER at that present moment.

For example,

8 years ago, you were that small little kid

who cried and shouted

" I DONT FRIEND YOU ALR LA!"

only because he didnt do what you wanted him to do.

and at that time you weren't laughing at yourself

saying that you're just being childish.

LOL

8 years later, you find yourself

immature, ridiculous, nonsensical, funny

and all the crap you'd describe yourself to be in the past

haha.

One of my embarrassing moments:

I remembered that I used to LOVE singing a lot.

Well, okay i dunno if its considered singing

or just making annoying noises from my mouth.

XD

When i was in primary school,

during our recess, we could do anything, ANYTHING,

You can be an idiot and disturb the other classes who still had lessons

by throwing paper planes through the window and dash off.

"lets throw in paper planes!"

" or or or..lets throw in sweet drinks in small packets!"

"OR how about we clog the sink and leave the tap on!"

hehehehehehe * evil smile*

or you can be like Scooby-Doo and gang to crack the case of

the haunted mysteries that you heard of in the school.

" eh eh, just now when i walk passed the 4th floor toilet...

i saw a black smoke.."

" eh i heard that black door at the 6th floor is haunted..."

"OK LETS GO"

or you can that emo kid,like me,who stands at one of the pillars

in the canteen singing to himself.

CAN YOU IMAGINE

"every night in my dreams...i see you...

I feel you... thats how i know you...

gone on..."

IMAGINE CELINE DION's VOICE

replaced by a 7 year old kid with a crooked voice,

and im not talking only about a crooked voice.

IM TALKING ABOUT

A 7 year old kid with a crooked voice,

singing with passion.

you know those kind of rockers who sang

while squinting their eyes

and whipping their hair back and fourth?

YEAH! Passion.

XD

and during all recess, when a whistle is blown,

it means that 30 mins is over.

and everyone has to freeze

LITERALLY FREEZE.

and can only move after the second whistle is blown.

So I remember one time,

my friend wanted to see if i would still continue singing

when the first whistle was blown.

So during that recess i kept singing and singing

waiting in anticipation

then the first whistle was blown.

AND I REMEBERED THIS.

IN ORDER TO KEEP MY SWAGGER,

I KEPT SINGING

so my friend was standing in front of me

with his face only 8 cm away from mine.

like in a kissing position.

SO AWKWARD.

I almost wanted to spit on his face and push him away

because when yo step to close to moi comfort zone,

imma WHIP YOUR ASS! LIKE A BOSS!

*just kidding*

and now that i think about it, its quite funny!

HAHA ahhh the good times =D

Now that I've "matured"

(okay maybe not mature =P)

I think about the change in me

and was it even my own doing

was it a change i wanted to be.

Because I've always thought

if i were to end up in another secondary school,

will i still be who i am now?

if i never made it into SC,

will i still be who i am now?

if haven't got the friends i have now,

will i still be who i am now?

Most of the time,

it is always the environment,

the people you meet,

the things you do.

The Expectations.

That changes you.

For example,

I'm not really the study type.

Never a fan of doing all the crap teachers dump at us.

Never a fan of studying.

Oh wait who isnt right? HAHA.

But when i was posted in to E1,

I had to up my game because everyone here

is studying so hard!

I dunno if its because of that natural "KIASU" feeling

that is sewn in the hearts of all Singaporeans,

or because of plain peer pressure.

But one thing's for sure,

it wasn't entirely me.

It has always been the expectations that people give.

Another example,

is LOVE RELATIONSHIPS

you met a guy and both of you are best friends.

soon you realise you have a deep crush on him.

You wonder if he feels the same away,

you wonder what you can do to impress him,

you start to worry about all the flaws you have.

One day, you asked him what type of girls he likes,

and all of a sudden

he brings out a list of characteristics of girl

similar to that LONG list of gifts you give santa every year.

"I like abcdefghijk type of girl "

Then you looked at it in utter disappointment

because you have none of that.

Then you start to not being yourself

and try many ways to be the girl of his dreams.

To some extend,

responding to these expectations is great,

because we end up being a better person

with a stronger character.

But we can also end up being someone

whom isn't us anymore.

And it gets worse when you cant fulfill these expectations.

You start to feel bad about yourself.

you start to think WHY AM I NOT LIKE HIM/HER

you start to feel inferior.

Sometimes all these could even lead to suicide.

and we're feeling all these because

we're trying to be who we aren't.

SO ALL YOU PEOPLE OUT THERE!

These expectations are just signs on how the society want you to be

They are neither rules nor restrictions.

They just want you to be who they want you to be.

But everyone is different.

Everyone is special.

You decide on you wanna be. :)
I wonder if I was the only one.
Because every morning, its only you. :)

The Changes that change

2011-11-28T15:52:00.001+08:00

Back from Cambodia, Phon Penh!

I'm gonna update more about that in the next post

after I'm done stealing photos from some people :D

The major lesson I learned from the trip

has really made a great impact in my Life.

Thats why I'm sharing it.

Because I learned it the hard way.

At the age of 8,

my Dad always told me that

"Things don't always go the way you want it to"

And my age alr suggested how seriously i took those words.

LOL

Back then,when I saw something I wanted,

" Mummy! Can you buy that PLEASSE?"

Then that's when all the drama acting starts.

I'd have the puss in boots BIG ROUND EYES

I'd have the small cute baby's SWEET SMILE

I'd have that big fat kid in the movie up 's BIG CHUBBY CHEEKS

" Okay la, just put it in the trolley. "

*Standing ovation for an outstanding performance* XD

HAHAHAH.

Good times...

and the thing with that is that it always works LIKE A BOSS.

XD

In primary school,

We were always given group projects.

And I Love group projects.

Especially when things gets done

before you can even say " LIKE A BOSS"

But the thing with group projects

is that there's always SO MANY IDEAS GIVEN

There'd be

The COMMON IDEA

The GREAT IDEA

The STUPID IDEA

The REALLY STUPID IDEA

The LAME IDEA

and of course lastly,

The NO IDEA.

HAHA

It comes randomly from different people you work with.

and people judge the degree of it being good/bad differently.

But In a group project,

ONLY ONE IDEA CAN BE USED.

So there's always that indecisive moment.

In this type of moments,

Theres only 2 types of people.

1. would be the "ANYTHING" people.

I've always felt that these people have alr made the decision

on which idea is best in their mind

but refuse to give their opinion to avoid any conflict

2. would be the "THIS IS BETTER" people

These people would stick mainly to their ideas

and find it difficult to accept others suggestions.

I was like the 2nd one.

Things always, ALWAYS, went my way

:D

It was awesome.

Till I entered Secondary school.

When there were more and more projects,

and there would be a different group of people

and there were always A LOT of better Ideas than mine.

So after many experiences in group projects,

and the guidance of teachers,

only then I realized with the mix and combination

of Ideas,

be it common,uncommon,stupid,lame

It would be the PERFECT IDEA.

Because, the whole group would agree to it.

because the whole group would enjoy the process.

and USUALLY the result of the project.

Would be Awesome.

I thought that if I were to always stay on this track

using this method with all group projects,

we'll surely succeed.

Okay maybe not those fantastic success

but we won't fail terribly.

Failure was never a threat.

and come to think about it now.

That is bad.

If you've never experienced failure,

when the day comes Failure will hit you hard

and you'll fall deep into the hole of shock.

and that was how i learned my lesson.

Before the trip to Cambodia,

we were told that we had to plan a 8hour lesson

to teach the children there.

So based on the information given,

we underestimated the amount of knowledge

they had about the topics we wanted to teach.

When we got there,

we were extremely shocked that we exhausted

our 8 hour plans in 1 hour!

I looked at my friend and he looked at me,

We both wanted to give the

Y U NO face

because Y WE NO HAVE BACK UP PLAN~

HAHAH

But in the end, we managed to pull it off

with the help a lot of impromptus and last min decision making.

During the reflections I shared this with the others:

I've learned to be prepared for changes.

And I'm not talking only about Back-up plans

There's a saying

" You Fail to plan, you plan to fail"

Yeah? Thats a guarantee.

But it doesnt work the other way around.

Even if you did plan it doesnt mean it'll succeed entirely.

For example,

You planned for a hiking trip.

You planned to walk or crawl or fly , yada yada yada,

And suddenly you realized,

hey what if it rains?

So you decided to bring an umbrella.

And when on that day it rains,

You'd be HOSEHBO! It rained!

so you feel prepared because you had an umbrella.

You started walking back to the shelter

only to realize you're walking barefooted because

your shoe was probably stucked in the mud.

and the trail in front,

has many pieces of broken glass.

The changes I'm talking about

changes like the weather.

Most of them are unpredictable changes.

You can have a million back-up plans

but none when none succeeds.

We have to be mentally prepared and not just physically.

And when things gets too tough

We have to always keep trying.

There's a quote

" If you cant fly, run

If you cant run, walk

If you cant walk, crawl

But no matter what, you gotta keep moving on."

We have to bring out that inner strength that motivates us

The inner strength is different for different people.

For me, That inner strength is remembering why i even

started doing it in the first place.

When I was teaching the kids,

I was reminding myself about the agreement to commit

myself to provide service for the children.

I've always believed that all change is met with resistance

It is only a test.

and to pass,

is to persevere.

That's what I've learned.

Failure is inevitable.

and so is success. :D
Now I understand my place in your heart.

Birthday?

2011-11-22T22:38:00.003+08:00

Alright! Awesome 22.11.11?

OH YEAH!

you know what that means....

ITS TUESDAY... TUESDAY... GOTTA GET DOWN...

..............

.............

HELL NO!

k that was so old. XD

Its my BIRTHDAY~

i know,i know,

I forgive you.

Guilty for not wishing me yeah? HAHA

NAH IT DOESNT MATTER~

I've always felt that birthdays are

like every other normal day in the 365 days we have in a year.

I don't know if you guys ever had the same feeling,

but some times during my birthdays for the past 15 years,

im very sure that there are some birthdays

that I just don't have the that feeling like its my birthday.

well, maybe because nth special ever happened on

every of my birthday.

Okay maybe not every birthday,

maybe this one time,

when i was like 1 years old,

and i saw this huge circular cream thing

with long sticks of lights on it,

And all of the sudden,

the whole house would suddenly become like a pub,

NOISY EVERYWHERE

everyone started clapping and singing

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~"

Then of course I would sit there with my big round eyes thinking:

WHAT THE HELL??

HAHA

okay maybe not what the hell.

but im sure i was thinking of something

cant remember.

what? Don't tell me you're expecting me

to jump out of my baby suit

and break dance to the birthday song..

ROFL.

SO YEAH...

It was special on my first birthday,

but when you see the same thing every year

.......

HAHA.

I bet most of my friends have had,

awesome birthdays

I've heard of some friends who created a new sport

called " Smash-the-cake-into-birthday-boy's-face"

And they'd be screaming and running around.

I've seen friends who made all the sweet looking

BIG-ASS birthday cards for the birthday girl.

I've heard of friends who planned like 1 month before

to actually execute the perfect surprise for the birthday boy/girl.

Totally fantastic.

You know how i know?

BECAUSE I WAS PART OF IT.

XD

okay maybe not all. but some at least?

HAHA

So my birthdays were never like that,

and i know there's that some of you

who are just like me.

Glad im not alone.

Or am i? o.o

But it doesnt matter.

Really.

My Birthday celebration aren't important to me at all.

I feel that having a date as a special day to remember

the day you came out from the you-know-where,

has more meaning to it than just cakes

or friends smashing things onto your face

or people giving you birthday cards

or whatever.

I feel that birthdays,

are dates where one should reflect on

the years they have lived and grown to who they are now.

Don't get me wrong,

celebrations are great,

in fact, they kinda make the day even more special.

But i think that most of us have gotten use to the celebrating part

and have actually forgotten about the true meaning of birthdays.

For example,

In a relationship,

I see most couples rmbing the dates of when they got tgt,

or like those married couples,

they would rmb the day they got married.

Then of course, a year later or a month later,

after they got together,

that particular day would OF COURSE be special right?

so do they spend time tgt on that special day

for the sake of celebrating it to make the day special?

or

to appreciate the love they have committed themselves to in the relationship?

SO yeah...

thats like my analogy and my point of view

of BIRTHDAYS

Oh and recently, I disclosed my birthday date on fb to only myself

So no one would actually know or be reminded

and surprisingly,

THERE ARE SOME FRIENDS WHO ACTUALLY DO RMB!

LIKE WHOA

some i dont even talk to that much or even at all.

THANK YOU SO MY MUCH GUYS!

And because of this i kinda appreciate

this year's birthday wishes A LOT more,

because it didnt came from some reminder on fb.

ONCE AGAIN,THANK YOU SO MUCH! :)

Fake Friends .

2011-11-20T20:35:00.004+08:00

I really love the sound of the waves

crashing on to the beach.

Its really calming.

Especially when you're all alone.

Its like the best relaxation music.

You know those relaxation tape,

where there would be a voice saying

"Close your eyes...calm your mind... think of..."

Throw that shit away and go to the beach.

I don't see how you can relax when

a robot voice from 2020 is telling you what to do.

REBEL! XD

So yeah...

The beach, to me, is by far the best place to relax.

when i was at the beach today.

I thought about several things.

one of the thing was....

friendship.

Its so fragile.

Most friendships are fragile.

From the start normally,

all of us will never honest with each other.

we will tahan each others flaws

even if it makes us feel extremely hurt/sad/uncomfortable

only because we want to build the friendship.

then when one day, that friend of yours irritates you really bad,

you'd start vomitting out the hard truth .

And BAM the friendship is broken.

HURT & BETRAYED.

And that friend blames you for being so "abcdefghijk" all this while

when that friend did not surface the problem!

I have this problem too.

I know, ever since Joo Hwan left,

theres alr no one who'd accept my flaws like how he did,

but still able to bring about a balance

and tell me nicely about what I've done wrong.

Most of the friends I have now just randomly gossips

about me like nobody's business.

Thinking that "he's not here he wont know"

*face palm*

Karma.

LOL.

True friends are hard to come by,

but along with thinking about all the backstabbers,

I also came to realise that there are friends who have been there for me

and its like because I lost a close friend,

I gave the statement that NO ONE understands.

I got so caught up with this problem,

that i actually forgot about the people who DO care.

who were always there.

Its funny how when a problem comes

we tend to always give our 100% attention to all

the negative things happening just to be

in a state of shock/anger/sad.

HAHAHAHA

Friends - no matter how bad they are,

you just cant live without them XD

Lets all be honest with each other :D

Being stupid.

2011-11-16T00:30:00.004+08:00

HAHA 12.30 am.

Kay Honestly, I cant sleep right now,

because I had a 2 hour nap,

2hours ago. HAHA

I had to sleep because...

okay well, I wouldn't consider it as sleeping,

fine, its more like resting.

You see, when I was like 10 years old.

I had a habit.

A bad habit.

A gangster habit.

ok maybe not gangster.

But its a bad habit.

So that habit,

i dunno if you guys have it,

its like when you're having a bad flu,

sometimes you tend to suck it in and not blow it out?

you know that habit?

Mines not like that,

Mine was more gangster yo!

I suck it in and blow it out

CONTINUOUSLY.

LOLS so it sounds like you, breathing in and out,

through your nose as rapidly as possible.

and its bad.

Dad said I might get sinus infection.

I didn't believe him.

not because i was so gangster XD

because i was SO STUPID.

So yeah the sinus attack started this year when im like 14 ++

10 years old to 14

its 5 years!!!!

I bet you counted it as 4 years because your maths failed! XD

So after 5 years, finally, my first sinus attack.

Yipee~

If you guys dunno what a sinus attack is,

its a sinus congestion and pressure

that causes that headache feeling.

Different people have it at different areas.

And me,

I got it at the eyebrow area.

SO IT HURTS SO BAD.

I believe its called frontal sinus? nt sure.

The sinus attack happened first in school

cant rmb which day it was

but i knew it lasted for about 5-6 days

until i decided to seek for medical treatment.

Then now,

like the past few days,

its been coming back.

I had training today,

and somehow after training, it occurred.

All i wanted then, was just to rush home and get my medication.

Damn, I regretted not keeping it with me.

Training was at punggol today, and to get home,

I either had to take

161 to cause way and another bus back home

or 965 to admiralty which happens to be a longer route.

I chose 161.

When I reached the bus stop,

there was alr a lot of people standing, waiting,

at first i didnt really care

I just wanted to sit down

but then i realised what if that lot of people are taking 161 too?

because theres like A LOT of people.

HAHAH

that would also mean i wont get a seat.

I know what y'all are thinking...

AREN'T YOU A YOUNG MAN

DONT YOU HAVE WORKING LEGS??

Erm,

1. I was so sick, i didn't care.

2. I was so sick and tired after training that I cannot think straight.

3. I felt like puking.

So when the bus came,

i was like the last to board the bus,

Oh and 161 is a double decker so there are a lot of seats,

so by the time i got up the bus,

there were alr no more seats

all full.

My team mates were standing with me too.

Then at that time, I'm like "OH LORD~"

I leaned against a part of the bus just to gain comfort.

I needed to calm my mind hoping the sinus attack would weaken

BUT IT DIDNT WORK

T.T + -.-

that facial expressions combined

can represent my emotions at that time.

Then on the bus i thought about the time when i had a fever

after training.

On my way home at the interchange,

I puked.

I remembered a girl who walked passed me saying

" EEEEEEE~"

I remembered a malay family, who's son was standing

close to me, and the only thing the father did was he pulled

his son away.

I remembered after all that an old lady came up to me,

helped me up to a seat and gave me a tissue.

Haha ever since then I'm convince that they are

still a lot of people who are heartless..

or am i just being judgmental HAHA

ok so as i was thinking about that in the bus,

I felt that extreme intention of puking .

The first thing I did:

I looked around the bus,

thinking,

where would be the best spot to puke.

I looked at where im standing,

I looked at the ahma infront of me sitting XD hehehe

I looked at the area near the door,

I looked at the bus driver

HAHAHAH

but in the end i didnt la...

when we reached the interchange,

I waited for the 964 bus and headed home.

When I got home,

I was like the flash.

Never have i been this fast.

usually, i would just sit on the floor and

untie my shoelace like at extremely lazy timings,

but just now, i was yanking my shoe off,

throwing it all over the place,

get my medication,

poured water from the jug into the cup,

didnt gave a damn about the spilled water,

chiong for a cool down bath

and when to sleep.

LIKE A BOSS!

The good news is that

I feel a lot better now.

The bad news is that

it will never go away.

Tmr, it will come back again.

How depressing...

Well thats life! XD

And i still love it!
The only thing I was thinking about when i was sick
is whether you're okay.

Love or Lies

2011-11-10T20:39:00.004+08:00

I think I'm addicted to UK music.

Especially the artist, Ed Sheeran.

Like most other artist,

his songs are about his life growing up,

from a humble background.

He mentioned that 90 % of the GIGS

he'd book himself in.

The first thing I thought was he

either had a tremendous amount of confidence

or he just had a really really thick skin.

I mean at some point of time,

you'd do a bad performance and people will start boo-ing

But i guess he kept it going.

That's why he is making it big in the UK now.

Then I thought about all my commitments,

Studies, Councillor, BBall , Guitar , her.

I realise I've never really given

100% to any of them.

Percentages would be most probably be

60%, 65%,60%,40%,75%

Yet I expected a 100% result. LOL

I must be an idiot.

OK I GET IT.

I AM AN IDIOT.

What goes around comes around aye?LOL

I admire his confidence too.

Not the boastful or arrogant type of confidence.

I mean, we're all only lack of confidence because

we're afraid of rejection or failure.

People who can take the pain of failure,

is bound to succeed.

and I somehow cant in BBall.

I'm always afraid.

Afraid of matches.

Afraid of steals.

Afraid of that fast break.

Afraid of that open layup.

Afraid of losing.

Afraid of failure.

Or maybe this is all just in my head.

Or maybe I just have to work a little harder.

Or maybe i was alr that close just that i don't realise it.

Or maybe I'm just making excuses.

I need to get my ass of the net.

I need to start working hard.

I need confidence.

I need to stop thinking too much.

................

...............

:/

Moving on to guitar....

I started taking up guitar lessons in early sec 1.

So my guitar grade, on average terms,

should promote every year.

So from fundamentals to grade 1 to grade 2.. and so on.

I'm suppose to be promoting to grade 3 this year but

I guess I'm still not up for it yet.

Lost passion.

Have not been practicing for a while..

Right now, the inspiration comes from Ed Sheeran

GOTTA GET BACK ON TRACK!

I've always wanted to sing&play a love song for a girl.

HAHA

YEAH YEAH I KNOW, THE GIRL WILL GO DEAF lol.

urghhh you wait and see :D

HAHA

Can't express how addicted I am to this friend of mine.

LOLS Its because of her, now I can't leave my phone!!

I think I've found a method.

Just switch off the phone and leave it in my bag

and never take it out

untill i finish what I'm supposed to be doing.

HAHA

in 4 days its gonna be 1 month since we started chatting.

in 2 days its gonna be her birthday.

1 more day and its gonna be 11/11/11

Hope everything goes smooth for her.

A girl like her really deserves a really really good boyf.

so JOLYN TAN! pray tmr ah! XD

One day,when she really finds her guy,

I hope I can still be there and not run off being all jealous XD

Hmmm... Still have a lot to say..

guess I'll keep it till next time ;)
well the truth is...

Laugh at the past.

2011-11-08T16:59:00.005+08:00

OH YEAH!

Finally the Holidays has begun!

I remembered about a year ago

around this time,

i posted on my blog this sentence :

" about a year ago i was..."

and it always repeats every year with the :

"Time flies..."

HAHA funny how all of us love to talk about the past.

Either that,

or our vocabulary is just too limited. HAHA

DON'T WORRY I'M IN IT TOO.

I realise that the thing about the past

and the reason why its so fun to talk about,

is because it can always make you SMILE/LAUGH.

Correct me if I'm wrong,

try to remember the time when you quarreled with a friend

whom you are okay with now.

And At some point of time in the future,

you'd be laughing to yourself saying

"HAHA WHAT WAS I DRUNK? WHY DID WE EVEN QUARREL?"

haha okay hang on there, i know you're gonna get debate with me,

saying some of the past are hurtful and depressing.

Technically, there are days where

you wake up and you don't see the birds chirping away,

you wake up with no mood,

you wake up with a neck ache,

you wake up with a bad hair day,

you know instantly the day is gonna be bad.

and when it really becomes a bad day,

when your boss scolds you,

when your friends gossips about you,

when you spill coffee all over your shirt,

Some of us just laugh at life and move on with time.

That's making the whole situation THE PAST.

Some of us, including me XD, sometimes we just

take it so seriously that it has to mean karma or sth

and it becomes a burden we carry up till TODAY.

although it could've happen YESTERDAY,

it cannot be considered as the past because

we still thinking about it in the present.

The most amazing thing about the past

is the blessing it gives,

we only laugh at it only when you rewind it.

Not at the actual moment of it. XD

The other day I was checking my tweeter

and someone tweeted :

#Primaryschool memories

*some tries to disturb you but they got injured instead*

" YOU: ORBI GOOD."

I totally ROFL at the word ORBI

hahahahah!

Because i can imagine my crazy pri sch friends

saying that every time!

But back then when i was in pri sch and my friend said it,

it wasn't all that funny.

WOW I think I've discussed too much

okay enough about the past.

Btw is there like a medication for procrastination?

Urghh im procrastinating in everything!

EVEN POSTING THIS, i waited till like 4pm

when i said I'd post this yesterday. LOL

I think the only medication i can think of is those

drugs that make you hyper?

HAHA NAH.

Ellen mentioned in one of her comedy shows

"Procrastination is God's way of saying

YOU'RE MOVING TOO FAST!

Procrastination isn't the problem,

its the solution.

So procrastinate now, don't put it off!"

HAHAHA

Life is controversial.

And I thats why love it.
I'm glad that you're moving on.
In 4days, you'll have a whole new year again:) Smile always.

Getting back up.

2011-11-03T20:33:00.003+08:00

I always believed everything that happens will

develop a skill that shapes your character.

Surely some skills develop easily,

they are those that happen positively and frequently.

Some are harder to achieve because

of negative experiences from the past.

Even with continuous attempts,

failure is still imminent.

Here comes the question:

Are there some skills that cannot be achieved?

Well, the skill im referring to is the skill

TO MOVE ON.

I have a friend,

who can alr have had a hectic day,

got scolded by a teacher,

had to talk to an uncooperative parent,

and still not be affected by it AT ALL.

I really envy people like him.

Is because he is able to ignore selectively??

for example,

its a hot, warm day and you're all sweaty and perspiring.

A ice cream truck passed by you.

it even rang its bell.

immediately, you cant help but think about that icy cold feeling

=D you're drooling now yeah?

YOU SEE, HOW DO YOU IGNORE THAT?

Do you go about lying to yourself,

okay okay, err its not a warm day.

IM VERY VERY VERY COLD RIGHT NOW

and yeah there was no ice cream truck!

and the bell?

THAT WAS THE SCHOOL BELL RINGING.

HAHA

Is that how they do it?

Anyways, troubled by a couple of things lately,

and i have no clue to what to do.

Sometimes i wished Joo Hwan was back here.

He'd listen to me.

Oh well, gotta try to move on then. :D

School?

2011-11-01T19:59:00.003+08:00

Holiday started?
To : Jolyn
HELL NO.
Bet you can't see this haha!
Last year, around this time,

I'm actually doing the school marketing thing.
So the truth is
Its a good experience.

I'd be going around to different primary schools to
well .. you alr know the truth.
introduce my school to them,

and hopefully my school would be the school of their choice.
I really really like you.
... i know what you're thinking.

(BORING)~

Yeah.

I didn't really like doing it.
I'm just hoping you might
Because i didn't like to disappoint these primary school kids.

HAHA!

If you're a secondary school student and you're reading this,

attend your school's marketing talk
one day just tell me the truth too.
and you'll realise the school really did an excellent job =D

at exaggerating all the good stuffs about the school. -.-
i wanna know who i am to you.
REALLY.

The idea is like a China Conman trying to sell an iphone

he starts with all the attractive crap about the phone.

THE DESIGN!!

THE FEATURES!!
sometimes you make me feel as though
THE PRICE!!

Then you'd be wow-ed and you buy the product.

You reach home.
im more than just a friend to you.
you turn on the phone.
but sometimes...
A FREAKIN ORANGE APPEARS INSTEAD OF THE APPLE LOGO.

merry Christmas.XD

yeap.

Same feeling as when you entered the secondary school of your choice.
I think you're still not over him
HAHA

Anyway, this year,my schedule is totally different.

I have this BOOSTER PROGRAMME
maybe im just being too rush,
where the sec 3 students have to attend a week of lessons

I don't mind the lessons

BUT HERES THE PROBLEM:
im really confused.
Yesterday, I didn't attend the lesson.

Class starts at 8 am

Immediately,

10 mins after lesson started,

I received a text.
but one thing's for sure:
" UNCLE! YOU COMING?"

Straight away i got that instinct to just put my phone away.

and do what you might ask.

-SLEEP-

XD

30 mins later.

I receive another text.

" YOU COMING ANOT? MS JUDITH ASKING."

At that moment, i was thinking:

holy-imported-cow-meat-from-lalaland!

Im in trouble.

Whenever a teacher makes the first move to ask a student B

to text student A who is absent to ask why he/she is absent,

YOU BETTER HAVE A DAMN VALID REASON.

and i didn't. :X

(I think some of my classmates are gonna see this.)

So I kinda faked a reason.

As the day passed im thinking if i have got a disease.

and incurable disease.

called:

LAZINESS.
I WILL BE THERE FOR YOU WHEN YOU NEED ME :)
i saw a trend in which i always skipped classes on Mondays.

Does this happen to any of you?

I kinda feel guilty though.
I will never get to meet you, will i?

Getting into trouble

2011-10-27T22:53:00.002+08:00

There's always a certain limit to having fun.

When we're young, like really young,

the smallest pop sound from the bottle could alr make us laugh

or chasing after butterflies could alr satisfy our excitement.

But then, as we grow,that degree of fun changes.

Everything, AND I MEAN EVERYTHING

that you have done before,starts to get BORING.

and once you've reached that BORING STAGE,

it also means you've reached the limit of FUN.

Like all other monkeys, including you and me,

we tend to go beyond this limits only to provide ourselves

the same amount of adrenaline so we can feel that thrill of excitement!

and that is also when ,

We get in trouble.

=D

Getting into trouble = going over the limit.

and there many ways in which you can get in trouble

not just having too much fun.

-------------------------------------

Have you ever had a morning

where you woke up feeling so positive.

So positive that you feel as though everything seems so perfect.

The birds are chirping,

The monkeys are swinging,

you look in the mirror and you see another monkey,

PERFECT MORNING.

=D

and honestly, that was how i felt this morning.

School starts and the everyday routine kicks in

the boring day starts all over again.

The funny thing about today is that

a lot of the teachers did not come

Hence if that happens, a relief teacher steps in.

So, at this particular time,

it was the end of our recess and we instantly knew sub teacher was absent

Because we saw a relief teacher walking.

A male relief teacher.

At that point time, our happy level,

or what i'd like to define as monkey level was super high.

NUMBER ONE because it was the first period after recess

NUMBER TWO since sub teacher did not come, its a free period.

So yeah, i admit we were rowdy.

The male relief teacher ( well... lets call him Ron.)

Ron, walks in all manly and fierce.

He stood in the middle of the classroom with his arms folded,

and waited.

LOLS

Somehow my class "knows" how the system works and if they

see a relief teacher coming in.

They know that the teacher will not be as fierce or as strict.

The seriousness is totally off.

Everyone would be talking, laughing, joking around.

No one would care about the teacher standing in the middle of the class

with his arms folded.

LOLS fail.

So Ron decided to start speaking,

" Class stand! My name is Mr @%@! and when im standing here,

i expect you to shut up."

then i was stunned. But no one actually took it seriously

because FOR GOD SAKE HE IS A RELIEF TEACHER HAHA

so after we greeted,

he told us that we could do our own stuff.

I turned my chair around facing the people sitting behind me

we started discussing about our project

and got a little carried away by the jokes we made

Out of no where

" BOY! YOU GO AND STAND IN FRONT. YOURE MAKING TOO MUCH NOISE."

Ron pointed at my friend.

At that moment everyone was in the blur state.

Then he shouted

" GO TO THE RTC NOW, SINCE YOU DON'T WANT TO STAND INFRONT
ITS AN ACT OF DEFIANCE !"

So he started explaining that he told that friend of mine 3 times to stand in front

because he was too noisy.

But he didnt so he was sent to the RTC( Detention centre)

Ron Added " Just because you are 3E1 students doesnt mean you are all that

there are other schools doing much better than you."

After that one by one we shouted that it was unreasonable and totally irrelevant

and debated in anger about the whole situation.

and one by one,

Ron sent those who debated down to the RTC LOL

He asked," 3 people have gone to the RTC who else wants to join?"

3/4 of the class stood up and walked out of the classroom!

TOTALLY EPIC. LOL

Its like a threaten fail. LOL

IMAGINE a burglar called you and said

" I HAVE YOUR SON HERE I WANT $1000 000 ransom!"

and you replied

" Im 18 and I don't even have a son."

*hangs up phone*

HAHAHA FAIL LOLS

it was that exact feeling haha.

So the 27 of us went down for detention and

technically we are in trouble,

but we found out later that Ron got similar complains

from other classes and Tmr is his last day of school in WGS HAHA

CELEBRATE GOOD TIMES C'MON!

victory is sweet.

To her:

16 more days left ! Before I tell you EVERYTHING

you really sure you wanna know?
When he started texting you, i feel that fear,
that overwhelming jealousy, because im also sacred you'd like him.
but it doesnt matter now. because i know im better HAHA!
and i love you. as a lover.

Horrible morning

2011-10-24T14:17:00.003+08:00

I always believed that how you start your morning

every single day, determines your mood.

What we see in movies, are perfect mornings.

Funny how people could just get up as soon as

the clock buzz.

HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE!??

You see people like me,

adapts to conditions where they can sleep

even in noisy areas.

My family sleeps at different times.

So when i wanna sleep my bro could be watching TV

and i have to adapt to that.

So if manufacturers create a clock with an alarm that sounds almost

like rejection button in "America got talent."

HOW DO YOU EXPECT US TO WAKE UP?

LOL

Then in the movies when the family guy wakes up,

he gets all dressed up and walks to the dining room

the mom would be there.

Small little rascals would be there.

EVEN THE DOG WOULD BE THERE.

then you'd see a perfect looking orange juice jar.

and toasts on the plate.

HAHA.

The family guy would have his breakfast.

A kiss to his wife and he sets off for work

Perfect.

As soon as i wake up.

People like me who suffers from the problem mentioned above,

would go through this morning hangover

which i like to call = Zombie mode.

we'd be rolling around the bed,

wishing it was like a magic carpet from Aladin and just fly us to the bath room.

Usually when we do get out of bed,

our head would just tilt on side

our eyes would be half open

and we walk all the way to the bathroom.

Sometimes i see my maid in the kitchen and she'd

be " good morning ~~"

and i would be

murmuring some alien language "errrehgajhkghhjghcvd"

just to acknowledge the conversation.

I'd get out of the bathroom only to finally be awaken

by the clock.

People like me are so adaptable,

we learn how to sleep while standing in the shower room

LIKE A BOSS! YO!

This is the time when I realised i had spent 30 mins in the shower.

and the mad rush comes.

and i'd start putting facial soap cream on my tooth brush,

and i'd rush out of the toilet getting my things ready only to worry about

whether i've forgotten to bring anything.

and i'd be going to the kitchen standing there for 10 sec and forgetting

why i wanted to go there.

THE MAD RUSH.

as soon as i got everything ready,

i get to the dining table,

-__-

nth. no orange juice jar. no toast.

EVEN THE DOG'S NOT THERE.

but i didnt care anyway.

i was alr late.

I got my things and rushed out to the lift.

As soon as i got to the lift,

The centre lift came up to my floor.

You see, my block has 3 lifts.

lift A, lift B and lift C.

all which are named - The Snail Express.

I don't know which era the lift came from but it is just too slow.

Given its name i shall not explain the first problem,

the second is that recently,

i had a spooky encounter with lift B which is the centre lift.

I came home one night only to find out that the door of lift be was half opened

at the lobby of the block.

HALF OPENED.

and we all know how lift works right

usually if you press for a lift and one lift comes,

if you try to press again a second lift would not come.

and the problem was that lift couldnt go up.

It just stood there.

So back to that morning,

as the centre lift came,

I was like...

..."c'mon... God, really?"

I went in, pressed the 1st floor button.

The door closed and i was

" thank god.."

and then it opened.

" OH HELL NO!"

i tried it again and again,

-.-

failed.

I ran to the staircase and rolled down like

JACK AND JILL

rushed to the bus stop,

and like all miracles,

I was still 2 mins early before the bus came.

I thought to myself,

maybe i still have a chance for my PERFECT MORNING.

I got up the bus and i noticed a few stares,

and instantly i knew what was going on.

i was sweating profusely.

and you know at awkward times where you've

made a mistake and try to cover it up

by doing something and ending up making a fool out of yourself,

YEAH that was what I tried to do

BUT YOU CANT ACT LIKE ITS RAINING IN THE BUS.

haha so i did what all of us would do.

I took out my phone.

Awesome morning.=D

Your Best friend.

2011-10-23T19:07:00.004+08:00

I'm always giving into temptations.

For the past few weeks,

I keep telling myself " Don't fall her, Don't fall her, Don't fall her."

But I did.

and I know why,

Its because I'm just selfish.

I told my myself "I'd listen to her, I'd listen to her."

But I didn't.

I didn't even consider about how she'd feel when i told her 'i like you'

Because I know she didn't want me to feel that way.

and I still did it.

Its because I'm just selfish.

I keep telling myself " Give her space."

I didn't even think about her recently falling out in a relationship.

and I still tried ways to spend time with her.

All because I'm just selfish.

It all started with me.

I was given the chance to be her Best friend.

Not her Boyfriend.

And I took it for granted.

Now that I know the truth.

I blamed the things around me.

I took the whole situation for granted.

I thought by doing this,

I'd love you better than he did.

I thought I did this only to bring you happiness.

But instead I only did it to bring mine.

Al because of giving into temptations.

Time to stop and think about her well-being.

and not just mine.

Time to be there for her when she needs me,

and not be clingy.

Time to just give her some space.

and If its meant to be this way,

God, I trust you.
:)

Worried

2011-10-21T17:30:00.003+08:00

WOOHOO TODAY IS FRIDAY!

oh yeah!

Actually even if its MON, TUES, WED, or whatever.

Its actually all the same as long as im at home.

THE PLACE WHERE I CAN ACT LIKE AN ANIMAL

sleep like a pig,

Eat like a Lion

scream like a chimpanzee

and then back to the pig.

LOL

So I guess regardless what day it is it doesnt matter LOL

C'mon this makes sense. Really.

Think about it, if now is the holiday period would you be

running around doing the hokey pokey

and shouting TGIF only???

................

................

(awkward silence)

..................

.................

NO!

ITS TGIED - THANK GOD ITS EVERYDAY

Hence, i can conclude that you people

are psychologically mentally unstable

because you regard having free time as happiness and

well a mixture of boredom

and whine over ad over again likka cute little child with big

and i mean BIG eyes wishing for the holidays to come.

And when holidays do come,

and boredom strikes,

you wanna go back to your busy life.

HELL YEAH

WAS I RIGHT

YEAH I KNOW!

i know cuz im like that too.

See you at IMH. LOL

haha so...

For the past few days,i thought about the holidays,

and I thought about the things i said i'd do.

and i have 1 week left HAHA.

Guess i have to man up. urghh.

Jia You Haris!

Also, for the past few days,

I'm glad i really have something to look forward to everyday. =D

I have great friends.

and Im thankful for that.
Shes always encountering a lot of problems.
I want to help her. I really do.

Great start

2011-10-20T11:08:00.003+08:00

Promotion day today!

It means its nearing the HOLIDAYS

Gosh I think I've been saying this phrase

over and over again.

"Time flies."

I heard of this quote when i was watching

the short movie called 'CASHBACK'

and the quote was

"The bad thing is that time flies,

The good thing is that you're the pilot"

For a second there, I was thinking to myself

if time really flies,

then i must be either

1.) SUPER FAST

or

2.) SUPER STUPID TO BE SUPER FAST

Sometimes I really hate how time pass by so fast.

Because Time changes everything.

And its not like you didnt have enough time to

cherish the moment with someone/ something (0.0)

Its just that someone is moving equally fast as time.

No ones stopping.

Sometimes I really wonder how animals live without knowing about time.

Or do they know alr?

LOLS.

All our life people wished to rewrite almost everything that has happened.

they'd say :" I wished i was back when i was young adult maybe back then i would have thought
the seriousness of marriage."

Then when they're young adult,

they'd say:"I wished i was a Teenager again, that way I would cherish that girl i once knew."

Then when they're a Teenager,

they'd say:"I wished i was a child again, skinned knees is so much better than broken hearts."

Then when they're child...

now what? wishing that you're a foetus

or wishing that you're the sperm who failed to infiltrate the egg ? LOL

By the time they'd stopped wishing,

Time has flown away.

People wishing for the past,

stays in the past.

They stopped in the middle of race against time.

That is how time flies.

But I also like the way time brings about surprises.

You'll never whats gonnna happen until it does

and when it does its best we be prepared with a bag of emotions.

Yesterday night I was thinking about her.

First thing that came to mind

3 years.

its been a while and now we're chatting again.

and i dont want it to stop HAHA

I hope she feels the same way too.

and only time will tell. <3

Friends.

2011-10-18T19:02:00.003+08:00

Damn.

EOY is over.

HAHA this post is specially for you.#J.T.S.H.

I dunno if you've been to RP

but at the entrance of the polytechnic,

there is this long giant walking (k thats exaggerating )

slope.

My friends and i would walk up that slope,

to the garden at the roof and study there.

and theres this favorite spot of ours that we'd always go to.

only because

1. NOBODY GOES THERE

2. NOBODY IS THERE

3. ( i think i know what youre thinking but nope its not a NOBODY AGAIN...)

its also because its very quiet.

Even the zoo at the forth level of the library at civic centre

couldnt be that quiet.LOL

WE CALL THAT PARTICULAR PLACE HOME.

(ok maybe we didnt. BUT YOU GET THE POINT!).

we'd be extreme geeks/nerds/birds/whatever

and study like a BOSS!

So it'd be around 8 PM where we'd pack our stuff and go.

and it'll always be that same route.

Down that slope.

And we'd be " eh eh i remember...."

then there'd be " oh ya..... "

HAHA that primarily my days before EOY in sec 2.

But now.

Things have changed.

What used to be the 4 friends together,

turned out to be the all of us going our separate ways.

FAST FORWARD DAYS BEFORE EOY THIS YEAR.

I got into a study group we used the same place

for every study session.

and of course like all other secret hideouts.

IT WILL BE EXPOSED.

soon after friends brought along other friends

who brought along more friends and...

yeah.

now what was actually heaven

became a ZOO.

but i didnt mind.

Even if the place was back to normal where nobody was there,

there wouldnt be the same people. Haiz.

I walked down that slope.

Thinking about how friends come and go ahah.

Funny how at school people

would say hi to you

give you that big bright cheeky smile

would hi-five you

but the moment you turn around

when you need someone the most,

they're not there.

HAHA.

I think the friends that you have strong memories of

are the friends who are important to you.

I remember this girl.

Maybe its because I used to like her that's why

I held onto this.

I met her in primary school

It was the mid-autumn festival.

Back then i was in choir.

and we're performing at the parade square in our school.

so i think it was after the performance where we had to gather at the staircase

at the back of the parade square.

So i was waiting and waiting

till i felt this line of pain on back ( LOLS I THINK I TOO WEAK)

i turned around.

and it was her using a lightstick to whack my back.

XD Thats how i met her.

Soon after... YEAH I FEEL FOR HER

and then it became complicated

only because i was too immature.

We stopped chatting only when i entered sec school.

FAST FORWARD TO NOW.

I just got back with her (as in friends)

Have you ever got that feeling when you get so interested with the person

you're texting with that you are so conscious about what you're texting.

you'd be thinking " would he be mad...

would he feel sian after i text him this... "

LOLS I DUNNO WHY BUT

yeah i kinda miss that feeling ahah

and there would eventually be the time when you ran out of topic to talk about

and you really dunno how to reply

BUT YOU STILL WANT TO CHAT.=)

haha I guess it happened a couple of times while i was chatting with her.

and i guess maybe im not good enough with this chatting thing

but i'll try my best =D

i think im addicted to her. LOL

And also because of that,

i don't want to bore her!

*prays* >.<

haha

I used to think i had a lot of friends.

But none of them were actually capable of standing by me.

maybe that is why i dont want you to feel the same way too.
Damn,I keep telling myself that we're just friends but
Im always thinking about you haha

I feel bad.

2011-08-20T22:09:00.005+08:00

Im back. Its been about 6 months!

Okay, the reason why I wasnt blogging for awhile was because

.... i was just pure LAZY. PIG.

And i guess its not just me.

I went to one of my friends blog,

and she is no better!

Then you might be thinking,

why the sudden come back?

Well. I guess this blog has always been a diary to me.

The only reason why i started blogging in 2008

was because i needed to express my thoughts somewhere.

So I guess that may be the reason why.

But I'm nt gonna recap on what happened for the past 6 months.

(I mean,who cares right? XD)

I think Im gonna mention the things that are bothering me now.

(wait, whocares about this too?)

Hmmm

okay, relationships has always been a problem for me.

I suck at relationships.

Last year, I kinda fell in love with this girl,

And i guess fell quite deep

to the extend of making too many mistakes

by becoming jealous easily/ by moving too fast in the relationship.

I was so foolish to repeat the same mistake

over and over and over again.

Till one day, she hated me.

I gotta give a standing ovation to those guys out there

who make it look easy in a relationship.

I guess i just couldnt put up with my emotions

and it got the better of me.

So I stayed away from her.

I didnt want to bother her anymore,

and after 3 months

I finally gave up.

I think she fell in love with another guy?

I moved on.

Guess its just another lesson learned in life?

I kinda felt happier after that.

Fast forward to 2011 this year.

She broke up with her guy? i think.

we both started texting

and somehow became close friends

Then one day she said she liked me..

* FACE PALM*

i dunno if it happens to you guys..

but after being away from all this crush/like/love

I kinda lost that feeling.

LOLS, okay i know what you're thinking.

IM NOT GAY.

HAHA.

We still continued as friends

but it came to a point where she knew that i was not interested in her.

Well of course i feel bad.Lets see:

She text-ed me everyday. even if i wont reply her.

She sent me letters a couple of times. even if she was afraid i wouldnt want it.

She baked me cookies.... (=D)

But I just i wanted to just be friends.

she said she'll wait.

..................

A few weeks ago.

A friend of mine liked her,

and i guess he is still chasing her...

ever since then,

She stopped texting me,

I stopped texting her.

I hope she'd accept that friend of mine.

HAHA

I kinda feel bad that after everything that she has done,

I didnt show her any sense of appreciation.

I hope she's not hating me right now =x.

But i also hope she'll find her Mr. RIGHT. or LEFT. XD

I hope shes happy. =D
I think I miss you.

embarrassment?

2011-02-07T21:28:00.003+08:00

HEY!

its been awhile aye?

hah. I dunno why,

but usually i dun really like to wish HAPPY NEW YEAR,(not that im racist)

and its not only new year but its all those other celebrations,

I mean seriously?

yea.

seriously.

Everyone who has a blog will seriously,

post HAPPY NEW YEAR.

seriously.

yeah! thats why seriously manzxc,

IM A REBEL.

YEEAH seriously.

AHHAS alrights enough of the seriously.

.....

But seriously.

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH

okay.

so what imma gonna talk about today is,

Embarrassment.

HAHAHs

What is the first thing that comes to your mind?

okay,

theres so many things to talk about embarrassment.

But im gonna bring it all down to school.

So embarrassment in school will be my topic.

Alright,

its hard to explain

how embarrassing it was FOR ME.

so i wil put it in a story form.

Okay so,

if you guys dunno me,

err im not a shy person

so if its about ppl calling me up to

stand and talk crap or jokes infront of teachers or 1200 students,

thats not embarrassing to me.

THATS FUN.

hahahs provided they laugh la.

HAHA

so, today at school.

i kinda daydream in class

when teacher suddenly called me

"Haris! so arr what is the difference between red apple

and green apple?"

"err....the colour.....difference?"

"huh?! ya la other than colour difference?"

" errr...."

".............yes?"

"errr one got leaf one no leaf?"

*friend whispers* no la!errr red apple is more healthier.

"CHER, is err red apple more healthier."

"YES! very good...so class...."

that was not exactly the conversation made

but its something like that

so that was me having the whole "conversation" with the teacher.

when the teacher called me,

I was like

??????????????????????????????????????????

WHUUUUUUUUUUT?

and at that moment when i couldnt ans the question

and when i was still thinking,

there was complete silence.

SILENCE.

and then i could imagine,

the other students starring at me,

think: YO MAN WAT UP?THE ANS SO EASY !

i was errr....errr....

trying not to show the teacher that i was day dreaming.

but in the end i couldnt ans

and i answered wrongly,

this was the embarrassing part,

all the ppl around me

have to

*whisper * pspsps ishoiahbdsdodlkasf

*whisper*jbdaifhbk;la;BDA

like some alien

whispering me the ans

like some code language

but obviously, it could be heard

by the teacher

i think.XD

so they were whipsering

and i bet you guys experience this too,

its only then when you realise

oh

thats the answer.

and you wanna try to make it look

as if you nvr had gotten help from anyone

and make the ans in your own words

but at the same time you cant think of

another way of answering.

That was only when i realise everyone else knew the answer,

except me.

ME.

wow.

That was.....embarrassing

seriously. XD

TEEHEEE

I'm excited.

2011-01-02T12:13:00.005+08:00

NO im not.

NO im not gonna say it.

Its not Happy New Year.

OH C'MON SERIOUSLY??!!

IN 1 YEAR WE CELEBRATE 2 NEW YEARS ??

that dun even make sense!

1) Chinese new year

2) Ang mo new year.

Okay so which would you choose

if you could celebrate only one?

...........

DUH. of course its the Chinese New Year~

why?

THE RED PACKET!!!! hahahs

and no,

im not money face.-- Im honest =)

Other than that, you have the exchange of oranges.

which i find quite interesting.

I dun really know the real meaning of why

we exchange oranges with our relatives

but to me,

I think the exchange of Orange is like a bond.

I mean like, there are some relatives

which I never really talk to

but it is because of the exchange of oranges

I had to exchange with that some relatives

and we managed to somehow communicate.

although I can always see it in their eyes sometimes,

they're always thinking

"gosh, a-look-like-malay guy is talking in mandarin,

wow the world is messed up"

HAAhAHHAS

nah im kidding.

LOLS but bringing that topic up,

I always have a problem with

the Vista point's Viva foodcourt.

Not that the food sucks

Not that theres only One malay stall

But its because

EVERYTIME, i go there to eat

I would order food that are more chinese

so there was once,

where I ordered Yong Tau Foo

and of course I had to use Chopsticks

( Yes, i do know the proper way of using chopsticks)
- DUN JUDGE ME

so back to, I had to use chopsticks...

and its always everytime...

I could catch someone from another table

staring at me.

NO...this is not those gang stare.

This is one of the most cruel stare of all the stare.

This is the RACIST! stare.

I bet they're thinking

"gosh,theres a-look-like-malay-

but-dunno-whether- he's-Philippine-or-Indonesian-guy

using chopsticks. wow the world's messed up."

urghhhhh.

arghhhh.

Anyway...

Sch is starting soon, in like 1 more day?

hahhas I've been Noted that

IM THE OGL FOR SEC 1E1 '11 orientation camp

WOOOHOO.

I hope I can be the OGL for the sec2 leadership camp too.

=D I just can't wait.

I have 2 years left.

2010-12-25T18:34:00.005+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Sometimes I really wonder

Why is everyone/ almost everyone celebrating christmas??

Its just like another chinese new year or Hari Raya

except this is for christians.

Why not everyone celebrates Hari Raya together??

oh oh oh c'mon

i know why you'd guys wouldnt

cuz you're RACIST!

hahs kidding.

Im excited for dinner ltr.

Im gonna have Roast beef and steamboat.(weird christmas huh.)

hahs

Well. I guess . Its really fast.

Im gonna be sec 3 next year.

and my seniors would be like sec4.

In a while, they'll graduate and its my turn.

I really love to think how it just pass by

I mean, there I was, entering WGS in my first year,

meeting my seniors,

meeting new friends,

and now here I am.

Its really weird.

Its only when you're gonna reach sec 3

and its then you realise your turn to graduate is

very very near.

lols

I think Im gonna have a tough year, next year.

Too many smart ppl.

HAIZ.

oh well. And I have 1 more year of basketball.

b4 my final season.

I've nvr been a great player in basketball.

I have no experience.

Im a coward in court.

I give up halfway.

I live to regret.

But I know that,

if this is my last year

I'll make the best of it.

I'm not gonna waste it.

Im gonna leave the Sch saying,

" I've achieved sth in my 4 years.It was worth it in the end."

jy Haris!

86

2010-12-19T15:58:00.000+08:00

Holidays are ending!

Cant wait for school to start

But I guess I'll be missing the sleep time.

that 10hrs long of sleep hahahs.

oh wait

I haven completed all my assignments!

Im left with math. 3 topics.

oh well, gonna do that ltr.

Ytd and the day b4,

I had SC camp. I was excited to go

for some reasons like:

1.I could skip training

2.I could skip training

3.I could skip training.

You see, we had intensive trainings in December

that means everyday training (mon to sat)

so i had no holidays.

I skipped chalet for this.

I skipped SC practice for this.

IM NOT GONNA SKIP THAT CAMP.

So, I went for the camp instead of training.

but was a period during the camp where

we had a "break." a VERY LONG BREAK.

which at that time i could've go for training for at least that while.

but i didnt.

i had a few other friends who were councillors who also did not go.

the next day,SAT

we decided to go for training since there were'nt

much activities in the camp.

when we went for training. We got scolded by our coach.

He said" all of you know that ytd there was very few ppl who

can for training. sec4 seniors were taking their N-lvl results

the twins had to go for their match.

you know how tough it is to conduct training if

there are very few ppl?

How would your teammates feel?

they had to chiong for you.you know.

So your commitment is at the councilor and not here?"

At that time, I was pretty upset bout

what he said bout the commitment thing.

I mean I came to almost all of his trainings.

and i only skipped once for that camp.

But i realised, he's right.

Training would be tough and i had let my teammates down.

it was only my selfish act not that i didnt have time to

go for training.

So that saturday morning,

me and my friends ran.

we ran almost the whole morning.

I wasnt angry at my coach when i was running

I was angry at myself .

"what they did ytd was tougher than what im doing now.

how can i give up"

i kept telling myself that.

and I completed 86 rounds that morning.

86 is the number to remember of this day.

and I have learnt my lesson.

I've lost someone.

2010-11-28T23:01:00.001+08:00

Hey,ytd was a very special day,

not that it was my birthday or anything,

but its the day when a special friend of mine........

haiz.

He came to Singapore, in 2009

He studied in Yusof Ishak secondary in 2009

and then transferred to Woodgrove secondary in 2010.

Its surprising isn't it?i mean how fate works.

Jerry was the first to welcome him. hhas

I could still remember the first day of sch this year

there was a huge commotion over this new Korean guy

in our class.

And he did attract alot of ppl hahs.

I could still remember his shy look.

lols

and now... he's so comparable to a..

adult? no.. no hmmm

teenager? nah. to cool for him...

MONKEY! YEA!

hahs.

Well, He is one of the few who made a great impact

in my life this year.

I guess i could just call it fate.

I mean we only got to know each other

after the first PW we had together.

Joo Hwan,do you remember?

I asked you to contribute to the Team logo drawing

and on the drawing there was a arm and you drew muscles on it.

and we all laughed at your drawing. hahas

REMEMBER?haha

Then soon, we did almost all the projects together.

1)PW
2)SCI project
3)ENG project
4)MUSIC project
5)LCD

hahas these are only the few i can remember . lols

BUT...

there were also times I had quarreled with him.

Sometimes, I may have just want it my way

and never thought about how he want it to be.

Sometimes, I do make fun of his language

and how he pronounce words.

I nvr had a chance to say sorry to him.

And its always every situation whether its my fault or his

he was always the first to apologise.

haiz...

1 year passed, and nvr did I have thought that he'd

go back so soon.

he said he'll stay till you finish JC...

haiz, I guess thats life, its like the wind

going in random directions.

That morning, when 2e1 were there at the airport

to send him off.

I nvr did apologise for the past mistakes

-gosh im tearing

so Here it goes,

Dear Kim JooHwan,

Hey man, How are you now in Korea? You'd better be fine. its alr 1 day since you

left. You better write back to us and time soon.=) Im gonna miss the times that every recess we

go to the canteen together. Or do projects together . Or that music video together. You've

changed my life so much. And its only now that i realise I have to thank you. Thank you, for

sticking by me, up or down.I'm really sorry for all the quarrels we had. I bet if I apologise back

then at the airport, I'll seriously cry. hahs SERIOUS!I'm glad i gave you that hug that day...haiz.

so i guess this is it. where we part. I wish you all the best in everything you're about to pursue.=)

Takecare my bestfriend.

your friend,

MONKEY Haris.=D

-Takecare.

problems problems.

2010-10-26T20:10:00.000+08:00

Past few days

were..

AWESOME!!!!

I dun have to worry about

anything .

ANYTHING.

Few weeks back,

i was studying like crazy

and now,

CAREFREE. the huge change is kinda weird.

I know what you're thinking.

you're gonna say,

" Haris, is this your first time taking an exam

and having a holiday?"

nono, its not my first.

IM... JUST WEIRD.

Im just glad,

EOY's over

and the SPEECH competition's over

but..

i cant relax yet.

WHY?

CUZ 2 FREAKING MONTHS LTR,

THERE IS THAT BIG BBALL GAME to play -.-

urghh.

Have to train.

Thats that.

Past few days,

theres also sth that happened,

you see,

my bro and my parents

somehow they quarrelled.

and it isnt like those normal quarrrell whr

MOM:" You're grounded!"

BRO:"URGHHH -.- "

*MOM TURNS AROUND*

BRO: _|_ siao eh.

no no not that. although thats

abit too much. but its some how worse.

so...

my parenst often ask me

why my bro changed so drastically.

and the weird thing is

THEY KEEP ASKING THE SAME QUESTION

i mean : HOW DO I F****ING know??!!

they started the whole quarrell yet they ask me why he changed.

-.-

okok so thats not the problem

the problem is,

my parents,

use me as a punching bag.

they dun physically beat

thats wrong.

its verbally.

Im like the for example:

Maria Hetogh ( dunno whos that? GO CHECK IT OUT URSELF)

Im like for example:

there are two neighbours quarrelling with each other.

but they dun physically fight

they throw paint over each other gates and windows

to disturb each other.

and im like the stupid gate.-.- haiz.

honestly, i get irritated

when my mother scolds universally

DUN UNDERSTAND?

okay.

for example, my bro did not do what my mother requested.

when she cant find my bro

and she saw me

then she will come up to me

MOM: " YOU ALL ONLY KNOW HOW TO EAT

USE COMPUTER AND SLEEP."

MOM:" ASK YOU ALL TO DO STH THEN YOU ALL

TAKE YOUR SWEET SWEET TIME...

(then she goes bla bla bla)

but wait

IM NOT MY BRO.

AND SHE's SCOLDING ME???!!

she nvr even ask me to help her.-.-

haiz...

so thats the problem now....

sometimes, i think adults,

tend to get too busy till they lost

-anger mangement

-E.Q.

-and especially "saying sorry."

ask yourself a question,

when was the last time

your parents ever said sorry to you?

Setbacks are true blessings in disguise.

2010-10-08T20:56:00.000+08:00

Give her that smile

and tell her you love her.

Give her a hug

and tell her you love her.

Hold her hand

and tell her you love her

never look back

and tell her you love her

give her the happiness that im unable to

and tell her you love her

give her that security that im unable to

and tell her you love her

give her that kiss that im unable to

and tell her you love her

dun worry , I'll be there smiling.

even if I cant tell her I love her.

Never had this feeling.

2010-10-04T20:32:00.000+08:00

There are so many ppl

who can dance!

really really well.

wow.

I'm impressed with some.

But nah. I dun think I'll be taking dancing

or maybe..? LOL

I'm totally impressed by the

couple who danced to the song Mad-Neyo

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jzzjyf6nPLw

You'll be stunned too.watch watch.

hahs.

The other thing thats on my mind

right now is that..

I dun have that feeling alr.

can anyone guess what feeling?

hahas XD

I always thought since p4 till sec 1

that its impossible not to...

but now i know.

and I'm feeling great in where I am now...

so can anyone guess wht type of feeling I have now?

I hope this would inspire you.

2010-09-29T20:58:00.000+08:00

I wana be the change

I want to see in others.

Ask you a question,

do you hate to be in your class?

Maybe its because

you think you are the odd one .

Maybe its because

you think that everyone

is getting along except you.

Look back, Think back.

we're you the person you are right now?

maybe you wished you could fly back to

before you chose woodgrove. and choose another sch.

BUT I'LL TELL YOU.

if its fate that brought you here

do you think it is trying to bring you to your regrets

or your destiny?

You dun have to care about how it changed you

you dun have to care about what if you were

in another sch.

because...

I believe,

that everyone here, in this class, in this school

are never perfect.

all have done sth bad in the past

and thats why we're all here,

We are what we are,

strong or weak , clever or smart , wise or stupid.

We're given those default qualities by GOD

and we have accept them.

But whats most important is

not what we are,

but it is who we are

that chooses to be strong or weak, clever or smart , wise or stupid.

It is who we are, that changes us all.

"No one will ever be perfect.

But it is the will to keep trying that makes us beyond perfection"

so what are your thoughts about this?

you cant win.

2010-09-25T21:10:00.001+08:00

DUN TRY TO BE A PHILOSOPHER

I dunno why,

but i get pissed or irritated when I see ppl posting

OLD quotes or sayings.

for example,

"no one is perfect."

err??what are you? you born ytd?

EVERYONE KNOWS THAT.

NOOB manzxc.

seriously. Cant you be more original?

YOU WANT PPL TO NOTICE YOU

OR HAVE A THOUGHT ABOUT IT

THEN WRITE STH DIFFERENT LA! -.-

I think I know why I'm so sick over this,

1. The person I'm pointing to is trying

to use this "so powerful" quote to redeem his actions

2.The person I'm pointing to wants attention.

3.The person I'm pointing to thinks

what he did was not his fault.

4.The person I'm pointing to is trying to

make it seems like its not his fault.

Lastly,

The person I'm pointing to,

is an idiot.

SO, WHAT YOU GUYS THINK ?

Let me hear your voice=)

2010-09-22T20:51:00.001+08:00

BIG BANG V.S. SHINee

who wins?

Okay, wait wait before you shout out

SHINee, SHINee! hear me out first.

and and and dun kill me?

hahs.

Although I'm not a stalker or

a crazy fan= write pop artist names everywhere.XD,

I prefer

BIG BANG than SHINee.

REASONS

1. Big Bang has 5 great pop artist which have their own unique routines

G-dragon( singer *own album*and actor* ithink*)

Tae Yang ( singer*own album*)

Top (Actor)

the other two not sure.

BLEH XD im not a STALKER! how i know???

2. one of the Big Bang member inspired me a lot by his songs, which gave me a

GREAT impression on Big Bang ( Tae Yang)

3.Big Bang has nice concerts. and they come up with new ways of performing.

like, G-DRAGON became a conductor of the orchestra of the concert

be fore he sings FTW!!!

link:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QcmEbHviL9A&feature=player_embedded

4.Big Bang has meaningful songs. Not saying all are meaningful. But the ones

that ppl most listen to in their album are the ones with meaning.

Those are the reasons.

now for the reasons why i didnt chose SHINee,

REASONS

1.I like the way it catches ppl attention with the catchy tempo and all the

SHUAI GEs but honestly( dun feel offended its just my opinion), I dun get

the feeling of their song.

I know you all sure say," THE SONG ALL GOT MEANING LA JUST YOU DUNNO."

wait, i know. for example,

if you're sad, you use slow piano music and soft melody and stuff

but SHINee songs to me is like sad lyrics but energetic rhythm.XD

2.I dun like SOME of their song titles. okay. One is "lucifer"

lol i know i know you'll kill me for saying this but

do you know what Lucifer means??? hahahs go check it out manzxc

3.THIS IS THE MAIN REASON

because they can easily make girls obsessed with them!

especially her ! HAHS! LAWL. but i dun mind XD

lol ya ya im jealous.LOL

okay so dun feel offended. well im only one person

who is voicing out his opinions so dun take it as im

trying to push you away from SHINee or wat.

but..BIG BANG ROCKS.

what are your views?

I still like you, you know?

2010-09-15T20:15:00.000+08:00

I dunno if its just me...

but i have a feeling,

shld I say I believe that

we're all related or connected to each other somehow.

For me,

its like recently it was Cindy Chang's birthday,

and I looked through all the ppl who wished her on fb

and I saw my friends name ' Ling Ting'

LOL

She's my pri school friend, and I'm there thinking,

" SHE KNOW CINDY??!!"

And this type of stuff is so common to me.

I have another friend who study in WRS

then she asked me " you know who is Jing Yi ar"

Then I'm like Ya? She my sch wat.

Then she wow. Then the same thing happened.

THE WORLD IS GETTING SMALLER.

AND THIS IS NOT A HYPERBOLE.(inside joke.)

Another thing i wana talk about is

BGR

err I dunno why,

but Sometimes i have this 'temporary wants' kind of thing

its like.

Out of nowhere or at a particular time

I have a great eagerness or want to have or be in a relationship

SO BADLY

i dunno why. LOL sounds ridiculous?

wait theres more

but after that short period of 'temporary wants'

I have 'temporary change of mind'

cause i have thoughts that i dun have time and stuff.

its like i want.. then i dun want...

BUT WAIT. DUN SAY IM A HONGSTER OR PLAY BOY OR WAT

THIS IS ALL HAPPENING IN A PLACE CALLED

THE BRAIN.=D

do you guys have this type of feeling? or is it just me?

3 quater.

2010-09-06T18:20:00.000+08:00

HOLIDAY!!!!!

Its September. and its really,really fast.

I have quite a few homeworks:

Literature project

English Glog (Done)

Science (Done)

Geography assignment

Mathematics (Done)

So, Im only left with Geography and Literature!!! woohoo!!

I gotta make use of the days left.

Didnt really do well for CA2 though.

oh well.JY for EOY

Heres the simple Glog I did.

LOL theres a cute video on sponge bob in it.

so.. view it if you want to.=)

heres the link: http://sj3vndm.edu.glogster.com/harislim-save-the-earth/

Oh ya and TO ALL SEC 2 COUNCILLORS,

theres a vid Afiqah made for us.

GO AND WATCH. its touching. really.

heres the link:http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1298045265#!/video/video.php?v=1310039565884

All the great times we had.=)

Ignorance over embarrassment.

2010-09-01T10:20:00.001+08:00

AR YEAH! finally its over!

so relief.

its fun though.

But its the jump style and the shuffling group

who set the standard of performance to wow the crowd.

Then of course we damn scared.and nervous.

But well. its great in the end. I guess.

Hair spray! SUCCESS! Theres a vid on this on FB.

I watched it and i realised we're like one beat slower.

I guess its my fault cuz everyone followed me.my bad LOL

But all in all it was still great.
Hairspray! yea! SEC 2 2010 councillors ROCK!

-I was placed on a road. I had to choose a path.

I regretted.But now it all seems like the right path.

Woodgrove <3

Its gonna be a night to remember ~

2010-08-28T22:33:00.000+08:00

On fri we had the rehearsals for teachers day,

damn. it was no good.

But hey! Today practiced hairspray from 10:10 to 6

and we've done it! Complete! woohooo!

I'm just alittle afraid cuz veeva left early so she dunno some of the steps. =(

oh well.

hope mon performance will be alright.

hahas group photo. of the heairspray ppl. not all are in though.LOL

Hasif is freakin solo. =)

I dunno when they took this but hehe looks cool

LOL

Haven shown you guys the pic of me with the geek glasses .

HAHAH i will post it on my nxt post

in this pic cannot quite see .LOL hahas

and no, I wasnt emo-ing

I was just reading my past msgs~ LOL hahahhs

I HAD FUN TODAY! COUNCILLORs, JY,JY,ZAI JY!

T, stay happy uh!=)

2010-08-27T22:20:00.000+08:00

Teachers day rehearsal!! OMG

scary! shitzxc.

But there were shocking moments

hahahs

will not spoil the surprise LOL really shocking.

hahas

To Veeva and Brenda or to all who had organise this,

THANK YOU!

if it hadnt be for this event,

I would be close to Amsyar they all

I wouldnt have so much fun!

but although we have much to practice, but hey,

it was great.=)

Im going to skip training tmr

for tmr's practice. haha hope it pays off!

LOL nxt week jiu yao perform liao leh!!! ARGGHH

Jia You!

Although,you're not the girl i dream to talk to

I felt happy too.Thanks.

I'm losing control. Falling apart.

2010-08-22T21:34:00.001+08:00

" forgive an forget not revenge and regret" by Ling Ting

After reading that.

I really need a lot of self-thinking.

I'm gonna go some where far this sept .

I'm gonna start reflecting.

A short period.A huge change.

Its pushing off the track.

But sometimes,

I cant help but saying those stuff out of anger.

I'll try to stop.

"stop fighting over girls." by someone.

I will. Sorry for what I've said.

2010-08-22T21:34:00.000+08:00

" forgive an forget not revenge and regret" by Ling Ting

After reading that.

I really need a lot of self-thinking.

I'm gonna go some where far this sept .

I'm gonna start reflecting.

A short period.A huge change.

Its pushing off the track.

But sometimes,

I cant help but saying those stuff out of anger.

I'll try to stop.

YOU DUN TELL ME HOW I KNOW?

2010-08-21T20:58:00.001+08:00

@$#@#%!%!@%

I really dun understand how

all that has happened has any link to this.

YOU ASK ME THINK IT THROUGH

but hey,

I dunno

who it has affected,

how it affects them,

and why it affects them!

YOU TELL ME,

HOW AM I GONNA REALISE MY MISTAKE?!

you know,

Its not that i wanted to change

but it is the change that happened

that made me different from before.

Before YOU say " you have changed alot the past few days"

HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT OF WHY?

IF U WERE ME,

IF YOU WERE ANGRY,CONFUSED,SHOCKED,STABBED

WILL YOU STILL BE THE SAME PERSON?

I know you all expect a lot from me.

being more understanding,

or being that person who's not so GL,

or at least not like those other guys.

BUT IM NOT PERFECT.

I GET ANGRY TOO.

Sometimes,

when u are in a bad situation

you're sad , angry , watever.

I make it look as if theres a way,

or calm you to a point where you realise something.

But it doesnt mean i can do or say the same things to myself

I do need a shoulder to cry on

I do need a listening ear

I do need someone to tell me my rights and wrong

I would really appreciate it,

If you could just tell me what i did wrong.

I know these few days i keep

bursting into flames very easily

but i hope you all understand the breakdowns in life

and it happens not only to you all.

You wanted me to move on.

and i would.

Just give

me time.

I dun wanna be a murderer.

2010-08-19T19:58:00.000+08:00

So many things happened.

And i found out a lot of stuff.

LCD!!!

argghhh thank god manzxc!!!

Thanks to ENELTON AND ZHONG GUAN.

you two seriously did a lot? HAHHAS

Teachers day thing!!!!

WTF soo tiring manzxc

i and Audi in all three acts

Noose, Hair spray and skit. WTF!!!!!!

tired.mentally.

but after today's audition, quite relieved ba.

Shocking.

really.I didnt know until wed.

it would be really sth

if she...

lol.

and... I found the _______

omg! so >.<>

why didnt i see this earlier!!!

oh ya...

"they" came to talk to me about _______

theres sth they're( dun wan say who)

keeping from me.HAH i gonna find out manzxc=)

To you guys:

You all keep say i've changed.

have you ever thought,

when sth happened to you,

the atmosphere is totally change,

and your whole mind start to

fall off a cliff?

how you expect me to control myself?

especially my feelings.

Theres sth missing

2010-08-17T22:10:00.000+08:00

Everyday is so boring.

LOL

Theres no excitement for tmr.

Not anymore.

BORING.

Cant wait for 9 sept!

arghhh

FASTER.

I cant wait for miracles to happen

I really cant wait.

CANT WAIT.

Will that boat come again?

It makes me smile.

2010-08-16T20:39:00.000+08:00

The only thing that im so interested

in today, is really P.E.

Played with mr.pan O.O

I really didnt know that there was

actually a sport called touch rugby 0.0

I'm totally impressed by it.

After P.E. everything was...

well... it was err fine. I guess.

Then after school did nothing

except looking through the 4951

I smiled so many times while browsing through~

Its like every thing is happening all over again

The feeling is really great=)

when looking through

I notice that every morning

Theres always a msg wahh~=)

and I rmb the msgs very very active

2 sec ltr need reply! HAHA then reply alr,

3 sec ltr need reply! wah then smile smile to my phone like one retard~

hahah good times. Fun though.

but only that its only a memory.=)

Im gonna look through again tmr!haha

.....................................................

I dun hate you.

Im not angry at you

I just dun feel like saying anything.

ignored.

2010-08-14T21:12:00.000+08:00

Patience.=)

Today was long!

Today woke up again at 7

Went training and hell my throat was dry!

12 plus end and there i had to go for councillor meeting

That really sucked.

Not because it was tiring or wat

but because the time passed so slow!

But finally it was 7 and WooHoo!

...............................

You know i like her and you still sms her...

I know what you're trying to do.

But in your heart...haiz.

I like your style.

2010-08-11T20:57:00.000+08:00

Not bad not bad.

Hahs you smiled at me

and i smiled back at you.

That great electricity buzzing

between our eyes.

Nice.

Don't be too rash to guess who=)

Because its Jeremy!

Nah its not a girl=)

he's a great guy, and even a wonderful friend!

Received the exam grades.

Lousy. failed Eng and Sci.

I don't want to whine about falling behind and all those stuff.

No time for that.

after school .

slacked like crazy in school.Even sleep!

Then Joshua came. He was like not in the mood?

Then we talked.We talked like brothers! Woah

He started all the punching the punching bag thing

then....

It was crazy. But fun.

After that had that cheering thing.

Its kinda... well.

Not fun. But the E2 girls are high?

or was it just me?

Right.

maybe it was just me.LOL

Went back home after that

Most of the times i wished i was in Christ Church,

I've wasted my time.

2010-08-10T21:04:00.001+08:00

Its august alr.

Its really fast. really.

tmr is the fasting month.

Heard they said that its a month of change.

hope it its.=)

And today is the beginning of the Hungry Ghost Month!

wow.

I don't really know if im like 'involved'

in this 'Horror month' but oh well. Respect.

Looking back,

I've wasted so much time alr.

There's so much things i want to do

so many promises to fulfill.

am i going to start waking up now?

I hope so.

No more wasting of time.

Time to live life the way i want it to be.

And how i want my future to be.

Haris,

Be a man.Stop flirting.And stop lying to yourself.

Just walk through that door.

and move on.

2010-08-10T21:04:00.000+08:00

Its august alr.

Its really fast. really.

tmr is the fasting month.

Heard they said that its a month of change.

hope it its.=)

And today is the beginning of the Hungry Ghost Month!

wow.

I don't really know if im like 'involved'

in this 'Horror month' but oh well. Respect.

Looking back,

I've wasted so much time alr.

There's so much things i want to do

so many promises to fulfill.

am i going to start waking up now?

I hope so.

No more wasting of time.

Time to live life the way i want it to be.

And how i want my future to be.

Haris,

Be a man.Stop flirting.And stop lying to yourself.

Just walk through that door.

and move on.

Lets try a new way.

2010-08-08T10:30:00.000+08:00

NDP is tmr, and im wondering if tmr is a publicHoli I??m

ifSit tis. i God l damn lit.

I was thinking of going out. (3)

but oh well. nvm tues then go.

Btw,

im gonna try a new way of writing

msgs in each post.

try decoding it=))) hahahahs

you know,

i realise, after giving so much advise about (8)

wat to do in relationships

i still suck in them!!!

I think i should change my ways.

Yea!!! Coach said" what you are thinking of now is who you are.." (5)

HARIS!!!

no more vulgarities( i mean use only when despo)
Get a life!!(Go out and play dun always get busy!!!)
Understand ppl(i better learn this fast)
no more singlish( american accent here i come!!!)

hahs weird you might say

i know it sounds ridiculous

but hey, im gonna try.=))

So much memories....=))))

2010-08-06T19:20:00.000+08:00

WA today damn suay....

go hall must do door duty hahahas

but also good la can see the performance.LOL

This year's celebration so much difference from last year

everybody all zi high one lol

all wan attention AHAHHAHAAHA

after the whole thing,

went gyming with friends

OMGG saw mr.Pan there and his big chunk of muscles~

hahs

after that went home and on checked on comments

comments for the music video

btw if u all haven watch,

watch it now!!!!!heres the link:
http://www.facebook.com/?ref=logo#!/video/video.php?v=1358095121285&ref=notif¬if_t=like

Its my group the music project!!!hope u enjoy it.HAHAHHAHA

the whole afternoon i was watching

Taylor swift MVs

it seriously made me remember about all the memories!!!~~~

OMG i seriously love that feeling.

then suddenly, i fell asleep lol

must be the gyming thing

tired~

woke up, and here i am now

not going for guitar class =P
although i gave up on you
I didnt feel happy at all.
but you did.

I wont regret again.

2010-08-03T20:55:00.000+08:00

TMR LAST PAPER!!!!

YEAH! but i realised tmr got lit test O-M-G

hahahs

science today, i tot it was easy but

in the end.....

haiz oh well.

GUYS guys guys

theres sth really amazing!!!

OMG its the beautiful scenery!!!
when i was away from smsing her these few days
i realised the scenery is like so damn beautiful!!!

i got so caught up with life

until i didnt even notice those little things God made

wow.

If i could see these sceneries everyday...
its more beautiful than you
wow.

i'll post the photos i took next time
=))))
i giving up on you cuz
you will never like me and
you dun understand me

This post doesnt state anything that happened in my life now but,

2010-07-23T20:59:00.000+08:00

Past days.

Future days.

Coming and Going.

exams are coming

'the month of hell' is also coming(guess what it is.)

to you, or anyone(woodgrover) who is reading this.

Think,

theres only 1 week left

everyday u wake up in the morning (or afternoon,PIG)

have u thought of

what you have did yesterday

that made what you are today?

Its 23 july 2010

Days just passes quickly

so does exams,

and then followed by

your future.

its not too late and it'll nvr be.

cuz today's mistake may just be tmr's success!

SO, IM GONNA STUDY REAL HARD

AND STOP ASKING ME TO UPDATE TRIS!!!!

aing.lol

if im free i'll update.LOL

-"motivational " speech by Haris^^

31th day.

2010-07-09T21:23:00.000+08:00

Sch is getting better le.

Training too.

even the sky sometimes looks beautiful
just like you
everytime,

at the bus stop.

i looked up

the clouds,

the sun setting,

One day,

i'll be chasing it.

not letting go.

cuz i'll get there.

if i give up now,

all that i wished

will nvr come true

all that i promised

will nvr be fufilled

all that i have said

will nvr exist.

Looking out of the window.

may seem idiotic

but if i could

have a glimpse of you everyday

i would look out of the window every

day.

So,

there are times where things get complicated

where things are always uneasy

will

there

your

side

even

you

dun

need

me.

Because,

I love you.

A better someone.

2010-07-05T19:33:00.000+08:00

Honestly,

it has been the 26thday.

time to go.
or not.
Oh well...

Today we had councillor day!!! wow

it was great

super fantastic. lol

then i and Yong Ang

was always liek "eh eh there got chio bu"

"no la there got"

Like we first time see chio bu like that.-.-

Then the whole day we keep chio bu chio bu

in causeway,
i was looking around and thenwondered whr

Yong Huey went

ThenYong Ang pointed to the old auntine sitting beside him

"there there there sitting beside that chio bu" LOL XD

at that time was really hilarious hahas.

Ultimately as a whole, the whole outing was fun.

oh well,

thats another day passed.

tmr sch.

haiz.

tmr training.

IM NOT AFRAID ANYMORE

JIAO LIAN BRING IT ON!!!

im just afraid of training during the fasting month~

oh well.

to all the guys out there:

The stars that you see tonight,
may not be the ones you'll see tmr.
*treasure your her*
to you:
i just wanna say, that im not worthy foryou and im nothing.
but neither you are to me anymore.

you're the gun to my holster

2010-06-16T22:12:00.000+08:00

Its the 8th day le...

8 leh!!

so fast...
today...

actually plan to go to sch to play ball

but again, i couldnt wake up hahahah

so... didnt play

BUT

it rained!! so even is i went i still couldnt play!!

woohooo!!

the whole day at home

game

game

and game

when will i start studying??!!

lol i'll try it again tmr.. hopefully

AND AND AND

I MSG HER TODAY AGAIN!!!

but ....

the msg is so different

everyday it gets worse..

haiz.why...
why do you treat me so cold
even when were just friends?
cant we be just like before?
I jus wanna say,

I love you.
Tiffany

So cold.weak inside

2010-06-15T21:13:00.000+08:00

7th day...

WALAO I STILL HAVEN FINISH HW

ltr maybe doing hehhehe

Today had training and

IT WASNT SLACK

but i hate it when it comes to the match during training

haiz...

nvm.

after that went to havelunch

SAW CINDY OMG

and and and

saw this cute couple~

holding hand somemore

(shall nt say who)

then went to do project

and after that went home...

I smsed Sandra today..

THX ALOT FOR THE ADVICE =D

I also smsed her!!!

but i think i kinda lost it

lost the confidence to chat with her.
but are you avoiding me??
haiz...
maybe i just deserve this
oh well...
after all that happened

Do i deserve to fall in love again?

2010-06-14T17:07:00.000+08:00

Its alr the 6th day.

......

haiz.i still feel stupid.
i miss her.
but, time to move on.
I'll still wait for her.
Today went to sch to play bball,

sadly only JK,Aloy and JC came

the rest was Bgirls and two hardworking Cgirls!!

wow the 2 C girls really nt bad .

I rmb when i was in sec one i wasnt even like that

hahs

after that went to causeway.

BUT WAIT

WHATS THIS???

look at the W of the SLOW
A DEAD SQUASHED FROG!!!POOR thing

Because of this,

alot of things couldnt happen.

Like,now the princess cannot kiss

and turn the frog into a prince..

haiz.. wat a tragedy.

WELL...SOMETIMES

after the "horror"

we bus-ed to causeway

then had lunch and walked around.

heheh

went home and rearranged room!!

seriously prefered the room arrangement NOW!!

YEAH.

THE 6th day without you

wat shld i do??

2010-06-11T23:36:00.000+08:00

SO fast FRI

today woke up at 9++(WOAH)

had to be at the RP at 12

heheheheh

i played games!!!!hahahhas

played com games till 10.45

then followed bro to the com shop

to do sth to the com.LOL

soon realied i was actually LATE!!!

11.45 liao hahahhahas

then i still slowly walk back home

LOL

reached RP at 1 hahhahs

HAD ALOT OF FUN THR.

i saw her.

haiz...

BUT I HAD AOT OF FUN THR!!!

JAIHO~

hahas its really tiring though walk here thr

but i think performers more sian

nid rehearse again and again.

-----------------------------------END------------------------------

Rite thats that.

now ,obviously,

i've locked my blog....

hope u all understand why.

(DUN UNDERSTAND WHY???)

this is why:

its all my fault.

I shouldnt have given up on her.

tsk

HOW can i expect her to still like me??!!

F*** YOU HARIS

stupid.

When she liked me,

I nvr treasured her love.

i rejected her calls,

smsed her coldly,

sometimes ignoring her msg,

yet she kept on being by my side.

One day i said my feelings faded

but she still cared for me.

it was just like inverse proportion.

she was x and i was y

then one day I liked her again(stupid rite.haiz)

F*** YOU Haris

but i think she has already given up

if that day i had taken a step back

and not given up

everthing would have been perfect.

how am to deserve her love again???

so the reason why i lock is bcuz i didnt wan her to see

so guys treasure your love ones manzxc...

will post more about wat i wanted to do

if everything were perfect.

i think i've lost you.

2010-06-08T23:29:00.000+08:00

Hey...

BACK!!! will update about

the trip nxt time..

oh ya, and i just realised today is

8 June

rehearsal for aesthetic night day.

no wonder you were so nt want to sms.

nvm rest ba

all the best to your performance on 11june

takecare.
no chance le... haiz

I Think too much.

2010-06-02T22:00:00.000+08:00

"All that I'm after,
is a life full of laughter,
I'm thinking that all that still matters,
is love ever after,
after the life we've been through,
Cause i know theres no life after you."
That night i asked you if you like anyone,
you said no. i was damn happy.
But now i realised, it didnt mean you still like me.
wa... tmr is flying off day.
i wonder if she remembers
so fast.

but still got training

wa, sian.

haiz. well, i wont skip tmr!

Theres not much to say,
when its boredom all day.
But that doesnt mean i have nothing to do
cuz all day long,
I'm thinking of you.

nothing matters but you.

2010-06-01T21:31:00.000+08:00

These few days were exeptionally

boring!!

MON 31 may,
1)preparation process
woke up "early"

to have the preparation for

bball presentaion.

nvm maybe you dunno whats that

but lets say its just a presentation.

In the end didnt really prepare.

LOL.

Went to eat mac

friends joked about nt eating fish burger

cuz it cuz OVERFISHING!!

then again, maybe not all of you will understand.
2) before presentation
ok so after that went to sch. realised

alot of ppl were there

but nt MR.TAN or COACH.

then we were discussing among ourselves

about the presentation.

LOL then suddenlly,

MUAZZAM friend called me to

go to the dunno wht room and join them for DRAMA

then i went in.

Guess wat?

everyone was laughing?LOL

i also dunno why like that

then a girl pulled me to another girl.

so i guessed she wanted me to do something.

i looked at muazzam and gave the "wat?" face.

LOL it was ridiculous.

after that coach came.

SOMETHING HAPPENED
3) presentation
then went on with presentation.

i didnt do well,

Yu Rui did fine.

i didnt know much about the slides,

i talked lots of crap

but im glad coach laughed .

hahs.

after that went home.

END

TUES 1June,
1)The Truth
tell you something,

actually i lied on this day.

i wasnt sick.at first.

honestly i woke up late.

=late for the councillor thing

and

=nvr go training.

so i smsed and said,

im nt feeling well

(when im perfectly fine)
2)what i did
then i decided to play bball

at the near by bball court.
3)Sick?
after playing .headache came.

is it because i lied thats why like that?

haiz.

i couldnt walk straight.

but it got better.
4)Training?!!diedie
i went home.

and saw the msg and got a call form

Jun Keong saying

i have to rush to training cuz

i no mc

so i did. with my headache.

i couldnt run of course.

when i reached sch,

i saw a few sec ones bballers leaving sch.

LOL.

so i tot training ended.

but i still went in la.
5)Lucky
when i reached the canteen,

i tot they were push up position.

but they were drinking water!!!!

thank god, coach forgive them cuz i nvr come.

and also glad teammates didnt blame me.=)
6)Outcome
i went to see coach

he said THURS then like take the perth trip shirt.

-.-

then after that bla bla bla

and went home.
7)shopping!!and..haircut??
went to chong pang with bro to get stuff

and then cut hair

LOL satisfied with haircut.

hope wont get caught by DP

or Mr.Jong during training.LOL

then after that went to see some

com stuff.

END.

excited for perth trip!!

did a few good deeds

and satisfied with it.

NO MORE LIES.(i'll try.)

=)wat a long post hope you read it.

PHRASES or PHASES

2010-05-30T19:50:00.000+08:00

HEY.

YES, you.

sorry sorry not you.

BUT YOU.

COME ON

Don't turn around. theres no one there.

UNLESS...

hahahahs just scaring you .

NOT SCARY? lol

fine!

past few days were okay.

i just hate the feeling when i got back my report book.

SUCKS

everyone was like
:yay! i improved...

and im like =(

i didnt drop drastically down

but i dropped to 3e2

I wna go e1 de.

That da, rachel shared with me

her studying techniques

IM SURE GONNA LISTENED

lol .... maybe you think now im studying

so nvr post much.

actually is no. im just pure lazy.

lol .okay so once again

im gonna study intensively in june,

but i will still post.
heres my ranking,

13/42

33/162

WTH rite.

pls dun pity me.i hate it. lol

oh ya and YESTERDAY,

my dad fufilled my 2nd wish

in total he has alr fufilled

2 of my wishes!!

THANKS DAD!!

And.... today

today seem so boring.lol

but chat with a CHIO BU on PHONE!!

she's HOT!! hahahhas

hope she sees this lol.

erm... yup,

i think thats all?

Here are some phrases which my

DAMN CUTE MIND

thought of:

1)Don't hate to love Never love to hate.

2)Death is a process, what makes it scary is grief , not death itself.

3)open the box,and you open my heart.

4)im a Zebra

LOL!!!!

Damn regret.

2010-05-18T21:02:00.000+08:00

Wow so fast going to june.

dun you think so?

that means you must have no life.

hahs kidding.

I always love to think about,

how things would turn out differently

if i had done things differently.

Like,if i followed my bro to his sch,

would i still be me?

or

If i had given up in one of the trainings

would i still be in sch team?

or

if i haven let you go.....

Everytime i made a decision.

theres always bound to be regrets.

lol. IM NOT TRYING TO BE EMO

but hey, deep thoughts.

why not wonder it yourself,

see wat soughts of things you might think of.

hahs.

"Damn regret,
I'll try to forget
Don't worry about me
Cause I'm refined
Cast my line
To see what's behind
Did you think you persuaded me to let you go? "
haiz

should i or should i nt?

2010-05-11T22:22:00.000+08:00

WOW lit is really a problem.

after exams still got homework.

fine.

i hope i do well in exams!!

aegh!!! nervous. i think tmr will get

atleast 1 paper back.

hmmm.bored and troubled.

okay maybe you can help..

do you want to help??lol

of cousre you want to.^^

1)should i go for pri sch class gathering?

2)should i stop bball?

3)shld i .....

hmmm there you go. oh ya

I CANT WAIT FOR HOLIDAY!!!!

to you:

im interested but i think im annoying to you.

WHO ARE YOU~

2010-05-05T18:36:00.000+08:00

hey y'all.

i didnt knew that the past few days would be so

....

so....

so...

uh.

so...

i dunno how to say.

well nvm.was sick the past few days...

and theres mid year!

WOAH

i dunno why everytime before

an exam waiting to start the paper

i feel so thrilled to do the paper.

hahas.

BUT NOT TODAY.MATH

gosh.alot Q. wrong. haiz....

nvm... studied in the library today.

saw that girl(dunno her name) sorry

saw her.

oh ya and if you see

a dog around ask it to bark at me

so that i will stop typing this and start

STUDYING.

hahs. JOKING

tmr is SCIENCE hope can ace the test easy.

all the best to everyone??

When you do something wrong you lose everything.

2010-04-19T18:37:00.000+08:00

I feel uneasy cuz of Kpo teachers.
!@#$
seriously.
They abuse their authority
The case is alr closed.
How?
And yet this few teachers are still talking about it.
They asked my friends about it
Crap.totally pissed now.
wait is nt ask is threatened !@ #$
Argghh whoever spread the rumours...
I will nt be so polite if teachers keep talking about this.
better watch out.(IM GONNA FIND YOU)
CUZ ITS NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS
hais...
I think some ppl understand. maybe keith.
and to:you,
when you do something wrong,
maybe you wont ever see this
you lose everything.
but i just gotta say
and everything you have,
i care too much to hurt.
go against you.
Maybe its just wrong for you to like me.
I dunno.But.
I still love you.
Leave if you must.

stupid ppl.stupid rumours.stupid situation.

2010-04-14T19:22:00.000+08:00

HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ
so many things happening.
im very lucky to be pulled out by mr.ng today
for the"goal setting"zzz
fuck you
nvm
had match today.LOL.
punggol sec. but nvr play well leh.
47-40.
hahs ok nvm.
i want to play in next match!!!

then had ORAL.
its only fun when the coversation part.
i laughed alot lol.
haiz but this means mid year coming...

i think im gonna...

stop doing somethings
give up somethings
start doing somethings
continue doing somethings.

OH YAAA so long nvr post liao...
cuz lazy psps
Here is lame question for you:

Imagine you are in a sinking rowboat surrounded by sharks. How would you survive?

ans: quit imagining!

I LAUGH YOU

2010-03-27T23:22:00.000+08:00

HEY HEY.
sorry busy with some stiffs.
AHAHHAS!!!we got into second round liao!

nt that happy yet.hope wont meet WRS
or nt there;ll be World war 3(is nt we hate the that sch is that sch hard to play with.)
hahs.

currently now planning on wat bball shoe to buy next.
Im thinking of...
Reebok answer X or answer XI

lol.

Im also looking for a new classical guitar...
hope can find a cool one. haiz.

oh ya and i found this vid very funny watch till the end.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HWD3x9J1f8E&feature=rec-LGOUT-exp_fresh+div-1r-7-HM

HEY IM KIWI

2010-03-17T15:59:00.000+08:00

6.30.waiting for the bus.
you think im irresponsible.
Joo Hwan beside me,
but you guys dunno wht im going through
He told me alot about_______
you think im like you?when theres a project i can come
when theres a meeting i can come?
actually nt supposed to take 901 de
I put wats most important first
that Jun Keong go cheat my feelings hahahahs
you guys just dun spare a tought for me
I DUN WAN TO HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH YOU GUYS
im going e2
nice scenery eh?

HAHHAHA to day training run 6.6!!!yeah hope dun need run again.

hey wat if guys have no birds but flowers?

HAHAHAHHXD (must always water it)

This guy here is a DOG.Dumb Or Gulible. HHAHAHHA

i wonder what he's staring at.

must be PORN XD

oh ya forgot to tell you guys,

im nt gonna post about camp.since like the whole world is

posting about it.

and im posting this now cuz

1 days ago-im lazy

3days ago-i have chalet

5 days ago-camp.

LOL

I'm Happy

2010-03-09T22:13:00.000+08:00

2 MORE DAYS TO CAMP!!!

really really excited. lionel say maybe i group with him.

WOW.

the Dog will follow its master(me)XD

hahahs.

Feeling really happy now cuz of HS

shall nt talk more bout it .

dun get curious ar.hehhehe

sian tmr wed...NOTHING INTERESTING IS HAPPENING

faster leh why nothing weird, funny, annoying and strange is happening...

haiz.nvm

whats your greatest fear?

2010-03-07T20:17:00.000+08:00

Do you know why i love
walking in the rain?

try figuring it out.
so this is it.
now kinda rushing HW.
thanks for telling me the truth.
haven even finish ESSAY three!! arggh
i dun know if you'll ever see this
nvm.NO FUNNY/OR LAME THINGS TODAY.
no mood for that.
hahs.
but
if you do...
JY Bgirls for tmr finals match!
i love you
this is a random post.sorry.

i dunno whr 'this' is going...

2010-03-04T20:05:00.000+08:00

YEAP!
to as you all ( I mean some) know,

TODAY GT FIRE DRILL AR

so that when theres an emergency,

the FIRE DRILL will DRILL in to your heads to know wht to do.

this is lame. alrite.

TIFFANY ASK ME UPDATE THIS,

ITS VERY VERY IMPORTANT,

BETTER READ:

its damn hot.=D

is this worst than lame?okie dokie

after bbq-ing ourselves on the green patch

we were told to go to the hall.

which is nt green.=D

is this lamer? yeah yeah.

WATCHED UP?there

nt up there.but we watched UP there in the hall...

lol. (this is getting ridiculous.)

its nice! tough the the background sound just kills me.

but im nt dea.XD

is this funny or very very very lame?

NVM.

after that dismissed and waiting worriedly

for training...haiz

nid train more liao .

performance very lousy.

NVM NEHMIND

i try harder now.

NOT NEXT TIME

TO:

TIFFANY and Melinda

I UPDATE LIAO!!!!

would anyone wait for me?

2010-02-22T21:29:00.000+08:00

Today Hist and English!!!common test.

English i did 143 words!!ughh i dunno will
get penalised anot. i think will la.
but nvm. I tried my best le.
"silence.the only audible sound i could hear
was the fast thumping rhythm of my heart.."
=D

Hist. damn easy. thanks to Joo Hwan.
he told me wat to revise.
and i did.
which means.. i could ans the questions!! hahs
i'll nt jinx it anymore.hope i get good grades.

all the best everyone! tmr math and MT!!
afraid of math.But thats nt bothering me nw.
haiz..

To you,
you know you hurt so much.
all i wanted is someone who could be love me enough.
someone who'd make everyday alittle better then the day before.
someone who'd be by my side.
I knew this was coming.
it always had been.
everytime.
your feelings faded.
is this the end?

well, thats all. jia you
everyone for your exams.

happy bathday?

2010-02-18T20:05:00.000+08:00

happy bath day happy bathday happy bathday happy bathday
happy bath day happy bathday happy bathday happy bathday
happy bath day happy bathday happy bathday happy bathday
happy bath day happy bathday happy bathday happy bathday
happy bath day happy birthday happy bathday happy bathday
happy bath day happy bathday happy bathday happy bathday
happy bath day happy bathday happy bathday happy bathday
happy bath day happy bathday happy bathday happy bathday

Tiffany =D

Gong 'si' fart Choi!XD

2010-02-14T18:26:00.000+08:00

Happy CNY!!!

and...

Valentines DAY!!...

and...

happy early commen test =(

yep...

Gong si fart choi! hahahs k la k la gong xi fa cai?

oh ya this is the reunion dinner...

hey duck...heres your sechdule,=D the day before yesterday frozen, yesterday braised, today eaten.XD

heres a game. playing with noodles..

hahahhas ' its a very difficult game to play as you have to say your wishes and..

play with noddles at the same time.'

are you gamed?hahahhahs kidding!!
wish everyone "good health great wealth!"

CNY!!! yep theres that tree again... why every year must have that plant there ar?

i ask my mom she go say, " of cousre must have luh CNY ma..."-.-

nt answering my Q.

Me and my sister.=D

Alrito! heres the part I nid your help...

seriously.

the pic above and below are pics in which i haven use wax,

the one at the bottom is the one i've waxed (duh)

so u think i look nicer with or without wax?

I look like a baby idiot, i mean idiot baby.hahs^

who's this guy?hmm he's handsome...

HAHAHHASHHAHSHhahahs

happy CNY everyone=D

I like you

2010-02-06T14:47:00.000+08:00

sorry guys blog's dead.

i kinda cropped up with smth.

hahs what thing?

when i succeed with it i'll tell you. hahs.

sorry no pics today.

But...

i got an idiotic vid of me....

wanna see?only if you're a woodgrover .

hahahhs

I just recently joined a study group . guess who's the teacher?

JOO HWAN

wth. he really suprises me.

sometimes.

only.

=D but he's teachings are great far more better

than some teachers.

oh and he's 'drama' gosh its hilarious.

hahs.

so.. err study group + guitar + tuition + "that something"+basketball

= hard work+ commitment + time management + no time for blog .lol

im just kidding ... hahs sure i'll post once in a while de.

BUT surely i can say i have NO STRESS

because....

someone from somewhere told me:

stress being itself, in addition to the result of itself,is also the cause of itself.=D

I dunno who i like luh!!

2010-01-24T18:23:00.000+08:00

Hey,watch out for WORDS!

WORDS!

dun get it right?Chao peng msg me de

very odd sia.

he suddenly msg me this type of things. Lame.

lol

YTD had cip!

hahs serious it was fun!

when going back to the units.. there were no dog barking.

hahs lucky.

my block didnt really collect much. 538 was the rubbish dump.

seriously! there was like alot thr.

i think half of the whole collection from 5 blocks half of

it was from 538.

Anyway, found alot alot of stuffs hahs like..
its actually a clock shaped like a handwatch. hahs nice.
looks more like a W.W.F/E belt.

LOL Joo Hwan is like damn funny sometimes..lol

gay pic. when someone was taking this pic , when he was looking at the camera...

HAHAHS i didnt kiss him. its just and action lol.

IM nOT GAY hahahs

really really had alot of fun.

I cant love you anymore.

2010-01-18T19:48:00.005+08:00

i dunno why,

today...

My...

throat seems to be so dry.

hahs.

SHIT!!

i cant seem to change my songs in mixpod.com

WTH why like that?

maybe today gt matainence. but its really weird.

oh well i'll try again tmr.

i realised alot alot of things today.

i realised

sometimes i shld just let go,

i realised

sometimes i shld just stay single

and i realised

My bbabll shoe is so comfortable!!lol

lol

ok jokes aside.

I think i dun wan to start a "war"

between me and him.since we are close.

so i'll just let go.

2010-01-17T20:27:00.000+08:00

YEA!!!!

i buy shoe and ball le!!!

My previous shoe was

NIKE duno wat

and now is NIKE ZOOM lebron

YEA!!! ball is NIKE Pure Grip!!!

today went to get bursary,

then went to get shoe and ball at queens way.

there the clothes BAGUUUUUUUS!!

nxt time going there buy lol.

anyone know whr to buy cap?

lol i finding those straight ones.

dun understand? ahahs

of cousre you dn understand .

if u know tell me thanks.=)

oh ya and i cutting my hair on fri

hope it looks nice lol

I like you but i dunno if i should like you.

2010-01-14T21:07:00.000+08:00

so long nvr post.

very long.

longer thn your hair.

longer then your hair.

I guess. lol .

sec 1 come for bball training liao!!

damn gu-ai- lan.lol

nvm la sec 1 mah.

shit sia everday end at 2.15 except for somedays.

haiz

teaining getting tougher liao

days get boring liao.

i really dunno wat to post.

oh ya i gonna cut mallet scared ugly.

wat you all think?

2010.wat to say..

2009-12-31T22:12:00.000+08:00

Theres a saying:

Leave something for someone
but nvr leave someone for something.
cuz in life something will leave you,
but someone will always be with you..

and that something is memories of 2009

and that somethings ar the ppl around me.

its like left 1.5h left before.Deja vu.

you dunno whats deja vu?

thats too bad.

alrite alrite.

I'll tell you. it means....

GO CHECK THE DICTIONARY.OR SOMEOTHER PLACE.
so... i just wannna say,goodbye 2009 hello 2010..soon

dun be too happy.haven 2010 yet.

lol.

I think i kinda felt dis year was fun but yet boring.

WAT SENSE AM I TALKING?

i mean, it ws kinda interesting but it could've bee more fun.

lol

since i came into woodgrove, I think i've changed alot?

i mean the way i see it.i think i've grown up?

hahs.

I've gorwn taller.(maybe 2metres?)

kiddingXD

I've gone so tanned( i think like allen iverson skin tone)

kidding XD

I've learnt nt to flirt so much?(i think cuz i just lost my balls)

kiddingXD

there so much more..hahs

i wan to thank,

my father my mother, sister brother for supporting me ...

and everything..

KIDDING XDDDD

heres who i wan2 thank:

firstly,

Bryan:
you're weird sometimes, but i kinda like you're

caringness(is there such word?)and your humbleness thanks.

dun everytime"your fault" ltr i fail math also your fault..

Brenda:

hahs i still rmb orientation i call you panda. you should sleep more.

cuz you look sleepy sometimes.but dun sleep too much.ltr become pigda=D

you kinda always chat with me when im bored?lol thanks.

Chao Peng:

aiyooo are you still in malaysia?lol im sorry sometimescmy words insults you,

or sth. but seriously sometimes when you say sth its really funny.like

yourgrandpa's dog.lol you give me quite alot of advice. thanks.

Denise:

2009 has been an interesting year,i think you made me look at my phone

more often thn i did b4.hahsyou know wht i mean.

im sorry for all the hurt I've caused you.

thanks for give me so much love.

Erilea:

i think i only recently started chatting with you?

lol.though its just a short period but i had a great time.

letting someone know how i feel makes me feel alot better.

thanks.

Jacqueline:

you are like the rainbow after a storm.

i feel your actions in class are like soo ridiculous

but really it makes me laugh atleast smile.

thanks,lady gaga.

Jun Peng:

Bro, sec 1 coming in liao^^ forget bout her larhs..

goodluck nxt year north zone.thx for standing by me everytime.

Im glad to have you as my bro.

Jia Cheng:

you are must start to teach me how to shoot.

its liek WTF manzxc. seriously, how did you

back throw three pointer and chop?kao!!

you can be annoying sometimes but.

you're a good firend.

Jun wei:
Dog!! dun keep DOTA go train like allen iverson.

hahs though im a nt close friend with you in pri sch,

but in sec i feel you're a great firend.In pri sch i tot you those kind,

ah beng ah seng, but deep down now i think you're...

a DOG!! thanks for being my friend.

Melvin:

wa seh you now skill improve liao hor.

but still cannot slack,nxt year pls come training...

or not i pau toh you... your ear^^ AHHAHAH

i think pri sch just liek jun wei i judge your character too quickly,

anyway you're a good friend thanks.

Melinda:

i lost contact with you le...

whr you?~see you soon... oh ya and,

takecare.

Samantha:

Senior,JY in your 3 pointers..

next year your game liao.thn after that you can go poly

find shuai ge liao!!! hahs.

you've taught me so much. thanks.

Yong Hui:

Senior,you re my role model...

you nvr bully me nvr treat me liek shit..

always encourage me,and stuff,

you're liek a glimmer of hope,

hahs thanks senior.

Yu rong.:

i think you too kind le,

sometimes in practice when i like in rage,

soemtimes i throw ball hit until you

you nvr did showed me your angry look,

all i got was a smile..

thanks for being my friend.

Yu rui:

must show more leadership,

lead the team, cuz they only listen to you

or yu rong...

JY!

Yuan Zhi:

work hard together win together..

Im glad you nvr skip any trainin,

though you were late sometimes but,

you made it.nxt year must jia you!!

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I think thats all im tired liao of posting. lol. goodnites!

happy new year!

ANYONE KNOW WHR TO FIND GUITAR TABS?

2009-12-29T17:07:00.000+08:00

anyone know whr to find guitar tabs?

not ultimate guitar.i dun wan that one.

cuz most of them inside all are english or is it all?lol

anyway im finding the tabs for wedding dress-Tae yang.

i found the intro only lol.

school reopening soon.haiz. still gt alot to do.

i mean other than HW.

But, i cant wait for nxt year.

it'll be my last.

o.o

dun think too much.

I mean my last year in C Division boys

i know how to start training properly liao.

i mean for basketball. start with a good basketball first.

i have a NIKE realease which i bought i think around 1 year ago or less.

but its out of air.lol

i have another NIKE, trifecta,which i used for 2 years, rain or shine.

now currently using NIKE trifecta .but hate it.

hmmm what ball should i buy...

nvm i'll use my 'balls' first.lol

maybe JAN then buy.

yeap.I think that is all.

going to try to do finish maths.i hope.

我是不是喜欢上你了？

2009-12-19T13:59:00.000+08:00

Back form BBall chalet.

its more interesting than class chalet.

seriously.

when reached the place. already overshot the bus stop

from whr we were supposed to stop.

lol. then we ran and walked

girls dun believe the way to go.

then we all go first.

hahs when we reached

coach cooking liao~ great cook.

thn Cgirls reached.hahs give the jiao bin face

lol cuz they dun believe mah lol.

after taht slacked.thn changed

then i think is eat first lol

quite nice.

after that played games first to be out. LOL

second game i think like 7th to be out?lol

very bad at playing games~always lose.

lol.

had to eat raw cockals?i dunno how to spell lol.

nvm.

then there was the walk.

pass the coconut?how come i dunno.

lol coach says its actually an activity

see how you communicate with others.simple rite?lol

but the coconut disappeared.i think someone threw it.

actually supposed to pass to the front.

lol Raven talked to me.~~so honoured

lol wished he'd teach me bball.haiz.

anyway. Juztin keep talking about ah gua ah gua

thailand ahgua

virgin ah gua.

and messy ar.lol dunno wht he talking la.

really saw one ah gua i tot

is girl sia cuz i nvr see clearly ma.

cannot be you walk pass and ust stare ma.

lol.

thn had very long walk back.

had BBQ.

now i know how to set up fire liao.

thanks Yong Lin

after that had another night walk.

CHANGI　ＯＬＤ　HOSPITAL

lol　i tot is the first building

cuz also looked abandon and creepy but its nt lol

when reached teh place looks vandalised and damaged

DUH~ of course thats why its called old.

lol suddenly dunnow hwy Raven was walking infront of my group.

overheard they say they plant sth?

lol fake one lol.

when walked in wow

alr reach 4th floor weird-.-

then activity.

finding the oreo.Wat hell.

after found le then head back.

Rest.

everyone like nt tired.

sat on the sofa.

had fun talking to Jasmine lol.=D

To: Jasmine.

There will a chance next time de.hahs

I also had fun. learned alot of things

about you that day.you're different from other girls

i mean you're response.hahs i like.

=)you must be really really tired,

from all the work?i tell you how to slp like a pig.

put green leaves on your bed then pour water on yourself and lie

on your bed hahs.then it will be Jasmine green tea =D

i drink tht to calm myself down hahs. hoope yuo slp well. oinkoink.

and walao you graduating and leaving sch le.=(hope you get good results.=)

talk to you again nxt time =D.oh ya your hair looks great on you.

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wanted to leave and head back home.

but it was raining.

senior sent us.wth so good?

in the end he send us until trafffic light then nid chiong until

bus stop.

-.- wtf but thx anyway.

took 969 back

slept in bus but the bell keep wake me up.lol

reached home.hahs had a fun night.

Everything's so different now.

2009-12-14T13:11:00.000+08:00

Hey.I know what you are thinking.

why all my songs all Tae Yang..

or

why i changed my shoutbox?

or

why i am writing this cuz its so obvious.hahs

dun understand rite?

i changed my shoutbox cuz i accidentally deleted it and

forgotten my log in ID and password

lol..

And.. Tae yang's music is great.

reminds me of Ne Yo XD

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thats my key board.

nt the piano, keyboard . the computor keyboard.

so there was one day.

i was drinking fruit punch and

i think i spread butter on my hands cuz when i left it

on the table when i wanted to take something

i accidentally spilled it.lol

I think im like the maple zakum.

gt so many hands can spill things over.

LOL

and so i realised my bro is also a zakum.

maybe nt cuz only ggt one zakum.(ME)

so he is thekerning octopus mob. lol

I know some non-maplers dun understand but,

BASICALLY

we both are clumpsy.

and yes. the same thign happened. my bro also spilled

the same drink.

lol

But this time the key board. spoiled.

i type 1

come out (i miss you, ******)

JK la

but seriously i type 1

come out 1
XD

i type lol come out

l/o/l

weird .

so my bro and I dismantled the key board.

and this happened

WOW i didnt its actually sheets of plastics under the amazing

button pressing thing~

its actually like thin thin wires in the plastic that connects

to the main wire..

maybe you all know but i dun.

ok, im and idiot.

cut me some slack ok?

and try it out yourself.

But you small boys and girls be careful ar

parental guidance advised.=D

so this is what we did wipe wipe wipe.

oh ya we could smell fruit punch lol

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Me and my bro loved to eat at this place some where in chongpang.

cuz everytime we go thr we

always make jokes bout something.

last time we went there we were being racist about the 2 men we saw at the park

the pther day...

shall nt say wat we said .

cuz is very...

ok i think last last week

we went thr again.

hahas. one thing i hate bout the place is that.

Before you even get to sit they wan you to order.

very@!#$%

then if u cannot find a sit they persuade you to a small table.

-.-

so when we wanted to sit down.

this lady come,

sir what would you like to eat?

then another auntie come,

sir what would you like to drink?

then again another lady come

mau makan apa?

walao eh.

But in the end ordered fish and chips hahs..

my bro couldnt finished his..

then i became very playful...

hahs its a mixture of green chilly, salad, coldslaw ,fries, tomatoes,beans and lemon

i talked to my bro about how the person who cleared the table think..

lol i felt its just too....

little. so i added somemore

i added mr prawn.lol its sick manzxc

then i added fish and chicken. =)

gross really so gross.

Then i saw my sister drinking coconut

then i was like ^^

but in the end didnt use it.

actually wanted to fill it up with all this

hahas so gross.

Time to start over.

2009-12-09T12:09:00.000+08:00

Back from Chalet.

I mean i was back

like 9 hours ago.

Yea so watever.nvm.lol

Day1

Had to meet everyone at

cause way.

so cramp seriously

so many ppl crowding at one area.

when took the train also.

so i and some of my otehr friends stood at the otehr side.

THEN WE DID THIS IDOIT THING.

we were at sembawang.

the doors opened.

I told WZ and ZG nt to follow.

But happened?they all followed.-.-

I went out of the train by the door nearest to me and

come in again in another door further from this

door.lol totally idiotic.some more walk back to the same place

we stood.

oh ya jerry followed too. We toughtJerry was left behind.

LOL we went back.But he was actually in the train alr.

so we were actually fooling ourselves.

When we reached the place i realised

__ _____ ___ _____!!

But sad i couldnt stay.next day gt training.

Ha BBQ but didnt eat much.

my hot dog keep dissappear -.-

went home reached home its alr the next day liao

00.30

Day2

Training damn tired.nt the training

tiring is damn tired.

Tell you sth HOLIDAYS

i sleep 10 hours everyday.

that day i slpt only for 6

no energy.so weak.

after training went back to chalet.

Took the trai again.

and again cannot sit.HAiz

reached thr but did nth much la.

only that at night went to the far far playground play.

Brenda why u suddenly frowning?smile more ok?

ok ar?ok uh.okie?okay? kk?k =)

Trained back home again only sat from pasir ris to city hall.

after that was standing again.

then we were talking bout who miss who

then i said i missed ******

then JP said he missed ********

CP said he missed, his grandfather's dog?LOL!

WTH sia reached home and slept soundly.

Let go,let go,let go...

2009-12-04T11:14:00.000+08:00

I've finally let go.

I think.

Hey its so simple why.

would you still wan2 use a pen

in which when you use it theres always

no ink?

But when other ppl use it there is?

You wouldnt rite?

I mean you'd fail your examintaions like that.

To you:

if you dunno who to trust,

trust yourself first.

then yourself will tell you who to

trust. Goodbye.=)