It's already been two weeks after the MT O's,
glad that's over.
I would rate the paper  6/10 with 10 being easy
I'm only afraid of the BZBD the rest was fine though.

One thing's for sure, all the WGS mother tongue candidates
definitely went into the examination hall feeling well prepared.
Mother tongue teachers booked two weeks of lessons to give us
crash courses after crash courses, papers after papers,
snacks snacks and more snacks.
And I'm really glad WGS has this practice of having two weeks
of Mother Tongue intensive.
Not only that I started conversing in Mandarin more often,
I got to mix around with people from other classes.
Especially Wei Zhong.
The two weeks of lessons gave me the opportunity to catch up
with him ever since we went to different classes in Sec 3.
I guess now that all this is over, I'm really gonna miss
the wild people in my class. HAHA


4 days after the Mother Tongue O levels,
I had a kayaking course on both Sat and Sun.
Went there with 3 other friends : Yu Rui Yu Rong and.. Megan.
Since only the 4 of us signed up for the course,
there was not enough people to start a class so we had to join
a school for this course.

Springfield Secondary.
Bryan once told me that if we really went for the course with a school
there will definitely be a lot of dragging of time.
Luckily, these batch of students were not that bad.
Most of them are actually quite experienced and fast learners.
All in all, I had a lot of fun kayaking
and the experience reminded me a lot about OBS.
Will definitely continue kayaking as recreational activity!


On the same Sat of that kayaking course,
I also had Aesthetic Night concert which was held at RP
in the evening.








There was CO, Band, Dance, Drama, Choir, Alumni, WGS idol, PSG and...
Teachers performance.

But The ones that I really enjoyed was Dance, Alumni, Drama and the
teacher's performance. HAHA


Mr Goh's Dancing is epic man.
Can't believe the teachers choice of song was
The boys and Fantastic Baby. *not bad*
HAHA

Overall, my favorite act was the Drama.
Really well arranged and if you could really follow the story,
it was actually really really good.


You see, all that went for the picnic had a role to play
and needed to bring something.
So all of them were present except for SHANNON!!
The one who's responsible for bringing the drinks!!
HAHA so Bryan (the guy in White) and me
started spam calling her and sending her RIDICULOUS TEXTS.
Typing out parodies of songs,
E.g. (Payphone)

"Im on my handphone~
try to call shannon
but she's stuck on bed, like glue

Where have the drinks gone
sleeping is soo wrong
We want the drinks that are with you

if happy ever after does exist
drinks would touch my lips just like a kiss
all this food prepared we're gonna eat
with no drinks, eating just feels so shit

try to call shannon "

LOL It was a fail but it was fun haha.













So what's fun watching was them attempting to fly a kite
which ended up as a terrible horrible vegetable
FAIL

HAHA There was no happy ending to that
and they gave up the idea of flying a kite eventually. HAHA



Went to catch a movie after that
and boy oh boy
we wanted to try Prometheus but 3 of us were still under 16!
And.. I was one of the 3 :(
When we were at the ticketing booth
We arranged our ICs in a way where it seems as if all of us are 16
and we failed LOL
We ended up switching the movie to Madagascar.
*not what I wanted to watch*
But the movie was quite hilarious.
So I guess it was ok. HAHA

2 weeks of june have been great.
2 weeks left and everyone else has alr started chiong-ing for the O's
so... LEGGO!

2 Weeks Left.


2 days after the mid-years ended,
I have actually already received all my Exams results.
Fast aye?
I gotta say, looking at the results, boy oh boy,
I'm no where near my goal.
It seems as though, when comparing the goal i set with my results,
my goal is so far fetched.
It is as if, I'm setting unrealistic goals.
Even my friend who scored way better did not have such high expectations.


Well, I didn't do too bad, I mean looking at the amount of
preparations made for the exams,
I wouldn't think that I'd end up a high flyer.
Though, I wish I had the ability to.
But that's the price right?
Hard work, perseverance, Time management, resilience
and all the other "Ten-year series" answers
Are just what you have got to offer before you can get the results.
But I had none of those.
I was just lazy, distracted, not driven.
When I said I didn't too bad, I also meant that I didn't do well either.
My grades were a little below the average of what I used to score.
Disappointed, but I'm not surprised either.


Did a little reflection about what I really want from here on.
And I'll treat this is as wake up call. A reminder.
I'll make my come back!
Reason why I got my results that early is because
I have Mother tongue intensive for the next two weeks.
That means from 8 to 5, its Chinese ALL THE WAYY.
Preparation plan from the school for the
Mother Tongue OLevels scheduled on 28 may.
I'm actually looking forward to it, it's a great opportunity to show I've got.
Not to prove to anyone that a hybrid/Mixed/Zebra can do well in Chinese,
but to prove to myself that I can do it again.


I got A2 for Chinese for the EOY in sec 2 after intense preparation.
After that wake up call, I'm now more driven and sure about
what I really want.
I am going to work hard for this. 2 weeks.
Sounds like what all OLevel candidates would say yeah?
My plan to remove the distractions is simply
to keep my phone at home. It worked and I'm sticking to that.
So on all weekdays, bye to the ring-a-ding-ding!
All the best to all taking the OLevel mother Tongue!






Spent the marking day with her. Hajarwinkey!~
Really enjoyed every moment.
Going out with her felt so natural and easy.
I know it sounds cheesy, BUT ITS TRUE!
Little you would know that she actually puts in a lot of effort
in erasing any awkwardness.
But you wouldn't realise it, I didn't anyway,
because the conversations were so natural!
That also means she talks a lot though,
but in a sweet and funny way. HAHA
Can't wait for another day out with her again!


Have a lot of plans in June,
One of them would be the kayaking course.
Actually, I learned how to kayak in OBS last year
but I need that 1 star certificate to rent a kayak.
So once I got that, kayaking would be in my
"101 ways to relax" list! HAHA
Planning to get together the Nerf team in June
for team-bonding and discussion for Nerf Camp,
Thinking of going camping with study group mates.
OBS gathering, Aesthetic Night..
Just can't wait!
But for now, gotta focus on Mother Tongue OLevel!
LEGGO~

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"I'll Wait For You."

Graduation.

Talked about this so many times and its not just me.
Friends gossip about it, Teachers talk about it.
Even that cat that sneaks into the school every morning,
whispers to me about it. LOL Don't be dumb, Cats do talk.

I've always thought about how the year is ending and as time flies,
I'm getting closer to "Graduation".
Or if you'd like to think, "getting older." Yes Likka Lao Uncle.
It's funny though, because even after much thought,
I still haven't come to a conclusion.
Half of me wants to graduate and step down from all my commitments,
But the other half just wants the opposite.
It didn't occur to me at that time how i would've felt upon stepping down.
Because Time, at that moment, wasn't ticking like a time bomb,
and surely I couldn't feel the intensity of graduating.

I've already stepped down from BBall and to be honest,
I felt neutral about it. Maybe because I was not so attached to the CCA.
But recently, there was the Councillor Investiture.
My final Councillor investiture.
When we were all waiting in outside the hall for the march in,
I was looking at all the new sec 1's coming in.
Reminiscing my time during my first investiture. HAHA
Wondering did I look that cute or shit :p
At the same time, I thought about that one question the teacher asked.
" What have you learnt during your time as a Councillor. "
And as we marched in, I swear, out of all 4 investitures,
The senior year investiture is DA BEST.
Partly, because I feel my sec 4 batch is well connected and bonded
and we'd root for each other any time.

Apart from the cheering, the investiture was solemn as it should be,
The certificate for outgoing councillors.
The handing down of leadership roles to the several Exco's.
The Speech by both incoming and outgoing presidents.
The Councillor Pledge.

But then, it all went down to the march out.
What was interesting about last year's investiture
was that it was very classy and "Romantic" with all the candles around.
But this year, we decided to give a new twist to the theme.
We wanted to do sth other batches of Councillors wouldn't dare to do,
something bold.
We had all the the sec 4s gather at the back of the stage,
while the rest of the Councillors march out of the hall.
When it came to our turn,
" Eye of the Tiger" was played.

We call it SSM. Solemn Surprise March.
We'd march half way into the hall with the audience thinking
that it was just another normal march out and then....






HAHA
So We kinda "danced" in the middle of nowhere
and... we walked out LIKKA BOSS! WOOO
I enjoyed the whole ceremony and especially SSM.
Really gonna miss SC.
Can't wait to see what's gonna happen next year!




So the Mid-years just ended but O-level MT is in 2 weeks!!
Will definitely put in a lot of effort for MT.
And for that to happen I gotta get rid off all the distractions.
ALL OF THEM.
Maybe gonna leave my phone in the closet at home during the weekdays
without taking it out at any point of time.
Just like how i did for the past few days during the exams.
No phone, no distraction!
Challenge Accepted?

HAHA Can't wait for the June Holidays.
Aesthetic Night, OBS gathering, etc.
Many things I'm planning to do with BRYAN WOOOHOOO~ , MEGAN
and the rest :D
But for now, the fight's with O-Level MT! So LEGGO!

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To see all those tweets, I won't deny that I die a little more inside.
Realising you've never said those words to me before.
He must've been an amazing guy, being able to win your heart.
I guess that's Life right? That's the price I've got to pay for my mistakes.
If things went back to the way it was before, I'll learn nothing.
Have got to bounce back, and come back a better guy, a better friend!yeah?
:) Takecare & Stay Happy.

I have always loved to know or feel how its like
to walk anywhere I want, do whatever I like
and not get any bad comments for it.
With our actions not being explicit or harmful for that matter.
Been thinking about you.

At some point, I feel restricted in the many ways of just being myself.
Imprisoned from my wild side,
Confined from the times where I just want to be alone
and not being judged as emo or depressed.
From the days where I just want to be who I want to be,
normal or not.
Some times, I still wonder who you're liking right now.

Most of these restrictions don't even come from
the law, school rules, or even any form etiquette.
These are just a code of conduct of being rational in your behavior.
Nothing wrong with that.
It can't stop you from being open minded, wild or even, stupid.
But what could, is bad comments.
Some times, I still think you're hiding things from me.

Bad comments are inevitable.
No one has no flaws.
And that being a fact, we're all bound to make mistakes.
But its not like we're unaware of it.
You can't just barge in and spill all your thoughts out,
say whatever you want, thinking you know what's right,
and hope your harsh words would somehow be
a trigger for us to correct our mistakes.
Sometimes, I know I'm just thinking too much. :D

The truth is, the content of the comments aren't always as hurtful.
It is, or most of the time, the way you say it or how we come
to find out that hurts the most.
Maybe there are just some things we're not fully honest with
each other.

With that in mind,
there are two types of people which I particularly hate the most.
The first one are the Straightforward people.
People who speak their minds without thinking.
Bad comments are spoken without the thought of whether it
might come out hurtful for the other person.
I don't mean that they should beat around the bush
but if they really take heart felt emotions into consideration,
being too direct isn't the right approach at all.
A lot of them don't even realise that they're actually
hurting the other party.
And even if they do, they would just be like :
" BUT ITS THE TRUTH!"
And I always wish I could rewind time and ask you
that question.

The second are the Backstabbers.
People who are so afraid of confrontations and speak behind others back.
A lot of them have the right intentions in mind,
they're afraid of revealing the truth, thinking it might hurt that person a lot,
but there's a minority.
They're ones who fabricate lies and assumptions spreading to everyone
like nobody's business.
Assumptions which could be degrading or even fatal,
assumptions which are called Rumours.
But Sometimes, I wish I could just start over.

We're all no stranger to bad comments.
Or even the undesirable methods of expressing it.
And its important that if we understand how dreadful it can be,
we must not contradict ourselves and be part of it.
That way we can extinguish its existence
and it'll be a taboo in the society.
Saw your blog, and the title. Kinda makes me wonder,
if its about the explanation the other day.

Being an introvert in primary school, I've been pushed around a lot.
A small size kid, being attacked by all those comments
every single day.
Calling me names, treating me like I'm some extra shit,
like I'm their punching bag.
Some times I wonder whether if its because I'm mixed
that's why I can't fit in.
I have to lie to myself saying " they're just joking around "
Because they're my friends.
Hope we could talk about it some day :)

And in secondary school, even after being groomed
to where I could stand up for myself and for my friends,
Bad comments never fail to keep flowing in.
There are still those friends who are just so direct
vomiting all your flaws making it more obvious than ever.
Sometimes I think they do it just to make themselves feel better.
Like they're just so perfect.
Even now, I can still see some of my friends
stuck in that social stigma I've been in 4 years ago.
Anyone who tries to spill any rumours about him,
I swear I will hunt you down.
Hope I could one day be good enough for you to confide in.

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Been trying to catch up with all the work I've missed
during the first few months of the year
because of all Councillor events and Bball.
But with that out of the way now,
I'm hoping to balance all the academic stuff with my routines.
Can't study all day 24/7!
And You're getting more and more prettier ahh
JOLYN TAN you know anot!!!

Recently, there was the sports carnival.
Participated in the Frisbee competition instead of the road relay.
And I've gotta say, Frisbee is SOO FUN.
Its the last year to have a game with my school mates
and it was so enjoyable.
But it was still a competition though, so like all other classes,
we fought hard and made our way to the finals.
We talked about the finals before the games and
all of us predicted that the only time we'd meet 4E2 is in the finals.
And we did.
They were really good and we lost, coming in second.
HAHA but it was still fun though getting mud all over and stuff :D
Stay happy ;) and all the best for your concert!

Sadly, Mid years are coming real soon,
hope I'm just as ready as the rest!

Natural is the best?

I hear that a lot.
Maybe, a bit too much.
To most of us, our looks play an important role.
It has a crucial part in portraying our personality.
There's no way anyone would buy a rotton-looking apple.
Yet Some of us don't see it that way.
The general population call it First Impression.

All of us started out differently.
Specifically, I mean physically different.
We're all unique.
And its this difference that makes it so much harder to
present ourselves in a way where we're comfortable with our natural looks
but also at the same time having these natural looks fulfill the
expectations of society .

Picture yourself standing in front of
a series of new phones lined up on the table.
You don't know the details of the phones,
but you're given a chance to pick one to be yours.
The catch is, you cannot touch or fiddle with any phone.
So how do you decide?

In the different phases of our journey,
when we meet new people,
often, we look at them as the series of phones.
We don't know who they are or their back ground
But one thing we do notice is the way they present themselves.
From the smallest detail like the symmetrical positioning of buttons
to the obvious ones like the glassy finishing of the phone.
It does shows a lot on the effort or workmanship of the phone.
Doesn't that give a good indicator
of the kind of person he or she may be?

That goes to show that looks play an important role in
how you want people to assume things about you.
Because no matter how hard you try,
You have no rights in stopping anyone from judging.

On the flip side of the coin,
I hear things like
" Don't put make up la. Natural is the best."
" Don't style your hair la. Natural is the best."

The question is.
"Does it really matter?"

A lot of people change the way they look
not because they didn't like their natural look,
nor is it because they felt that they're not good looking enough,
its purely because their new look is how they want to
showcase their personality and their style.
Nothing to do with being insecure.
And whether is it Natural or not.
 IT DOESN'T REALLY MATTER.

Because First Impression isn't solely about looks.
Factors like gestures, body language are the small things
that people do look out for.
And they judge you based on that too.
True enough that the type of a person he/she may be
cannot be determined by his/her outlook,
But before anyone would want to take another step in finding out,
his/her First impression has destroyed it.

So if you ask,
Natural is the best?
Well maybe. But why not don't take a shower?

 Friends.

Can't deny that they're just so important.
They don't come around very often.
It's not like when you're walking down the street and you see a random someone,
"HEY HI HO"
Bam! you two become friends.
No. It doesn't work that way. Unless you're an idiot. LOL
Because making friends also means investing trust.
Believe it or not, there's gonna be that one day when you're gonna have
to share your problems with that friend whether you like it or not.
And if you're gonna unconsciously share it with a random stranger then...
YOU'RE AN IDIOT. Literally.


One of the amazing things I find about friends is that
all of them are Unique.
You can't find a friend having the exact personality as another.
If you think of it in a small group,
like in school or your work place,
then definitely its obvious that you can't find someone that's the same.
But if you really think of it in terms of couple of years later,
when you've meet hundreds of new people,
you'll realise that there's really no one quite like that particular friend.


There's always that one friend you can always turn to when you have problems.
Then there's one that you know no matter how hard you try,
you can never go about a day with them without laughing.
Then there's one that has a REALLY REALLY Irritating flaw
that annoys the CRAP out of you but you just seem to like them anyway.
And there's so many more..


As I'm going through the different types of friends,
different names starts to appear in your head YEAH?
Oh c'mon if its a NO, that only means YOU GOT NO FRIENDS.
LOL JK
or maybe you just got too many.


But no matter how different all your friends can be.
They're all there for a reason.
I know this sounds crazy,
But you don't really get to choose your friends.
You just meet that person by fate and ever since then,
the two of you took off instantly as friends.
Plain and simple.
Its not like you go around surveying
"hmmm you're smart, ok you be my friend"
"hmmm you're hairy , ok you're not my friend"
"hmmm you're 1 cm taller than me, ok you're not my friend."
"hmmm you love hairy russian dudes? ok you're my friend"
.......right?
LOL


So as much as you wanna Troll and deny, XD
my smartass can conclude that,
They're all there for a reason.
Like what Swoozie mentioned,
the saying "everything happens for a reason"
is only for things that happened that you can't control
like someone entering your life, or an accident that occurred.
Not for example,you decided to hook up with somebody and say
" Everything happens for a reason."
The friends you meet are definitely there
to teach/show you something about Life that you never knew.


Just lay back one day and think about the people around you
that have made an impact in your life.
I always believe that the people around you,
is gonna  be the mirror of your character.
So what if, you didn't meet that one friend?
Would you still be who you are now?



Then with the existence of friends,
There's also gonna be people who hate you, gossip about you, betray you,
People who's gonna make your life miserable.
Its funny how people in the "hater category"
don't even know that they're hating.
LOL


Its when no matter how you try to please them,
they just won't stop hating on you.
They just wanna bring you down.
And 2 ways on how people would usually react to that.
1.) They blow up like the CrazyAuntieOnTheMRT and starts @#!&%@!
or
2.) Their inner self, just tears apart.


What both reactions have in common is that,
They will start losing themselves.
They'll stop being who they really were before,
-Cheerful, Enthusiastic, Positive.
They either become more hot-tempered
feeling like the whole world is against them
or become really depressed and stressed, feeling like
its all their fault.


And You can't blame them for feeling that way either.
It's never a nice feeling when someone
betrays you/gossips about you/hates you.
and it's even harder to ignore everything that's happening
When your friends sees all that is going on,
they'll surely try to comfort you and help you.


All I'm saying is if you can't solve the problem by yourself,
you definitely need to get help from a close friend to assess the situation.
Don't try to be captain underpants and try to solve the problem yourself
after failing the first time.
You'll just end up hurting yourself.
Just Face it, The close friends around sees the situation
in a more composed and calm manner than you do.
So it will be in your best interest to listen to them.


Then I hear people saying,
" I wish people like them don't exist!"
or
" I wish they can just eat shit and die" <<<< LOL
Don't you think the world
would be a scarier place without people like them?
HOLLA DON'T GET ME WRONG,
I also detest people like them,
but imagine life without haters, betrayers,
Won't everyone be so Naive?
No one will understand the value of trust
because everybody would, by then, trust anyone or everyone!


I remember reading a book having an analogy for this concept.
" Pain is an unpleasant feeling. But on the positive note, without pain,
You could've gone home without realising that you've actually lost a foot."
HAHA


So...Mr.PositivePants here can now say that both your friends and haters
are really important in Life. WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT :p


Last one before I end off the post.
My younger sister and older brother.
HAHA
My sister irritates me A LOT. But I kinda like her a little.
BUT SHE'S STILL ANNOYING XD
and my brother...
Well he's just another Handsome dude I look up to XD
Don't really talk to them very often,
but I'm finding time, here and there,to catch up on things. :)
HAHA


Guess its really time to show my appreciation
before they're gone.
I still love you. Hope you still feel the same way about me.
If you do, please let me know. cause I'm really dying in doubts.