Friends.

Can't deny that they're just so important.
They don't come around very often.
It's not like when you're walking down the street and you see a random someone,
"HEY HI HO"
Bam! you two become friends.
No. It doesn't work that way. Unless you're an idiot. LOL
Because making friends also means investing trust.
Believe it or not, there's gonna be that one day when you're gonna have
to share your problems with that friend whether you like it or not.
And if you're gonna unconsciously share it with a random stranger then...
YOU'RE AN IDIOT. Literally.


One of the amazing things I find about friends is that
all of them are Unique.
You can't find a friend having the exact personality as another.
If you think of it in a small group,
like in school or your work place,
then definitely its obvious that you can't find someone that's the same.
But if you really think of it in terms of couple of years later,
when you've meet hundreds of new people,
you'll realise that there's really no one quite like that particular friend.


There's always that one friend you can always turn to when you have problems.
Then there's one that you know no matter how hard you try,
you can never go about a day with them without laughing.
Then there's one that has a REALLY REALLY Irritating flaw
that annoys the CRAP out of you but you just seem to like them anyway.
And there's so many more..


As I'm going through the different types of friends,
different names starts to appear in your head YEAH?
Oh c'mon if its a NO, that only means YOU GOT NO FRIENDS.
LOL JK
or maybe you just got too many.


But no matter how different all your friends can be.
They're all there for a reason.
I know this sounds crazy,
But you don't really get to choose your friends.
You just meet that person by fate and ever since then,
the two of you took off instantly as friends.
Plain and simple.
Its not like you go around surveying
"hmmm you're smart, ok you be my friend"
"hmmm you're hairy , ok you're not my friend"
"hmmm you're 1 cm taller than me, ok you're not my friend."
"hmmm you love hairy russian dudes? ok you're my friend"
.......right?
LOL


So as much as you wanna Troll and deny, XD
my smartass can conclude that,
They're all there for a reason.
Like what Swoozie mentioned,
the saying "everything happens for a reason"
is only for things that happened that you can't control
like someone entering your life, or an accident that occurred.
Not for example,you decided to hook up with somebody and say
" Everything happens for a reason."
The friends you meet are definitely there
to teach/show you something about Life that you never knew.


Just lay back one day and think about the people around you
that have made an impact in your life.
I always believe that the people around you,
is gonna  be the mirror of your character.
So what if, you didn't meet that one friend?
Would you still be who you are now?



Then with the existence of friends,
There's also gonna be people who hate you, gossip about you, betray you,
People who's gonna make your life miserable.
Its funny how people in the "hater category"
don't even know that they're hating.
LOL


Its when no matter how you try to please them,
they just won't stop hating on you.
They just wanna bring you down.
And 2 ways on how people would usually react to that.
1.) They blow up like the CrazyAuntieOnTheMRT and starts @#!&%@!
or
2.) Their inner self, just tears apart.


What both reactions have in common is that,
They will start losing themselves.
They'll stop being who they really were before,
-Cheerful, Enthusiastic, Positive.
They either become more hot-tempered
feeling like the whole world is against them
or become really depressed and stressed, feeling like
its all their fault.


And You can't blame them for feeling that way either.
It's never a nice feeling when someone
betrays you/gossips about you/hates you.
and it's even harder to ignore everything that's happening
When your friends sees all that is going on,
they'll surely try to comfort you and help you.


All I'm saying is if you can't solve the problem by yourself,
you definitely need to get help from a close friend to assess the situation.
Don't try to be captain underpants and try to solve the problem yourself
after failing the first time.
You'll just end up hurting yourself.
Just Face it, The close friends around sees the situation
in a more composed and calm manner than you do.
So it will be in your best interest to listen to them.


Then I hear people saying,
" I wish people like them don't exist!"
or
" I wish they can just eat shit and die" <<<< LOL
Don't you think the world
would be a scarier place without people like them?
HOLLA DON'T GET ME WRONG,
I also detest people like them,
but imagine life without haters, betrayers,
Won't everyone be so Naive?
No one will understand the value of trust
because everybody would, by then, trust anyone or everyone!


I remember reading a book having an analogy for this concept.
" Pain is an unpleasant feeling. But on the positive note, without pain,
You could've gone home without realising that you've actually lost a foot."
HAHA


So...Mr.PositivePants here can now say that both your friends and haters
are really important in Life. WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT :p


Last one before I end off the post.
My younger sister and older brother.
HAHA
My sister irritates me A LOT. But I kinda like her a little.
BUT SHE'S STILL ANNOYING XD
and my brother...
Well he's just another Handsome dude I look up to XD
Don't really talk to them very often,
but I'm finding time, here and there,to catch up on things. :)
HAHA


Guess its really time to show my appreciation
before they're gone.
I still love you. Hope you still feel the same way about me.
If you do, please let me know. cause I'm really dying in doubts.

HEY HO LEGGO!
Haven't posted anything for quite awhile.
Since school has alr started, its really difficult 
to find the time to blog.
You know they say,
" The Bad thing is that Time Flies,
  The Good thing is that you're the Pilot"
I think for me,
I don't see how the "Good thing"
is in any way beneficial for me.
LOL


If I had a chance,
I would just crash whatever I'm piloting.
Because in our hurry to chase after Time,
we only care about how we want things to be in the future.
we forget about how things could not have been in the present.
we kinda miss out the little things in Life.
The little things,
like your parents love that you couldn't see.
like your friends care despite showing the least gratitude.
like the difficult times you struggled through that only made you stronger.
It's these little things that could not have been there,
It's these little things that we take for granted,
only to realise its existence once its gone.
Appreciation is huge :)


I had a great start to my school year this year.
Although it was getting a little, JUST A LITTLE,
annoying when ALL the teachers in every subject,
have to constantly remind us about the O levels we have this year,
as if its not hindering us at all. LOL
I kinda feel that the teachers are more excited than the students.
HAHA
Maybe they've seen so many batches of students not performing at
their highest potential which the teachers saw in them.
Watching my seniors taking their O level results the other day
made me really nervous about the examinations,
because from the statistics and in comparison to my goals,
I really have to work really really hard.
I made a deal with Joshua that whatever he gets for L1R4 this year,
I have to beat him with my L1R5.
HAHA I really hope I don't forget this. LOL


Other than being able to see all that familiar faces again,
especially Ms. MengTong Lumie haha! Such a unique partner!
But school had 1 more event that I was really excited for,
partly because its my last SC event in Woodgrove.
The Sec 1 Orientation camp :D


Had a lot of plans for this camp.
Now that Hasif is also around to be an OGL,
we gotta make things more interesting. hehehe.
E.g.
We had a discussion as to who be the toilet manager
if the sec one's were taking a shower at the shower room.
Because we cannot allow them to take their sweet sweet time
we have to rush them.
In case if sneaky little Hasif and I were doing toilet manager,
we had an idea,
we would bang on the cubical doors
*BANG BANG BANG*
Me : " OI 8 mins is all you get! Then get out!"
8mins later and if they don't come out,
* Hasif takes out bucket of toy cockroaches *
We would angry bird all those little toy insects into the cubical
MUHAHAHAHA


I had a lot of plans for this camp because,
of the previous unpleasant experiences as an OGL.
Don't get me wrong, being an OGL is FUN
HELL FUN >:D
But last time, I was inexperienced.
Though there were successful moments,
those failures never fail to haunt me HAHA.
Its my 5th time being an OGL
and I'm pretty sure I'm ready hehehe. 


After the past experiences of being an OGL,
if you're gonna be one,
it would be in your best interest to have ready
all your nonsensical cheers.
I'm not referring to those performing cheers thats like
" T2! T2! is the best!!"
No. Not that one.
I'm referring to what I call "defense cheer".
something like:

" GIVE THEM ONE WHATEVER CLAP"
or
"GIVE THEM ONE LAME CLAP!"


" I SAY MILO YOU SAY DINOSAUR
I SAY DINOSAUR YOU SAY EXTINCT
I SAY EXTINCT YOU SAY YOU STINK!"


HAHA THATS ALL YOU GET!
can't let you in to all of my defense cheer XD
hehehe
Last year in 2011 when I was the OGL of class 1E1,
I thought I was already prepared to handle the class,
until when I was dragged into this war cheer.
and i failed to defend my class.
I failed.
TERRIBLY.
Hohoho so this year, it ain't going down like that again!



 LOL

If I could remember clearly,
Feng kun, Hasif and me were the only ones
taking down notes about the camp LOL
SC AH! CAMP HAVEN'T START ALR WANT LEPAK!
#you siao! XD
haha kidding~
I won't be typing about what exactly happened in the camp.
Because J.K. ROWLING will kill me if I beat the length
of her Harry potter series with my 2 day 1 night stories!
JK k I know That was lame.
But I'll be sharing with you guys,
the special part of this camp for me.

I felt so good after the entire camp.
Mainly because it was a major success and also
because I've overcome my fear of being the campfire Emcee.
You have no idea how tired I was after this photo was taken.
I was actually still pretty hyper cuz it just ended
but as I was walking home, the "shag-ness" started kicking in.
LOL
If you ever need someone to chat with,
I'm always here alright :)

Walking back home and I kept about this SC event being my last.
Mixed feelings.
I must say, its from all these SC events that taught me A LOT.
I failed so many times in SC,
and its after so many experiences,
I finally succeeded.
Glad that I didn't give up and chicken-ed off halfway.
Looking back, I feel really glad that I was accepted into SC
when I was in secondary 1.
I wouldn't be who I am today if it weren't for the people
I got to know in SC and things i got to do there.
Student Councillor ROCKS :D
Hope one day you'd reply my texts :)
and go back to how we used to chat :D
ILoveYou

One of the things I usually do during the last few days
of December is to read the Archives in my Blog.
And by archives I mean,
Archives of the current year of 2011 and also
particularly the archive of December 2010.


HELL NO I AINT GOING BACK TO
THE ARCHIVES IN 2008 / 2009 LOL
* embarrassing*


If you have a blog, its really nice to re-read
all the nonsense you wrote in your blog for the past
2- 3 years?
Blogging has always been a place for me
to articulate my thoughts.
Kinda like those reasons why people have diaries.
A reflection paradise. HAHA.
But that wasn't the reason why I started blogging.


I started blogging in 2008
and back then, Blogging was the trend.
I was influenced greatly by the number of my friends
who have blogs and so I decided to try it out.
Blogging for me, then became more of
" hoping people would come visit your blog."
But I guess with the grand entrance of
Facebook and Twitter, blogging got lesser attention
And for a period , I stopped blogging too.
I think months after that, I re-entered blogging
with the intention of reflecting.
I believe most of us have participated in camps of any kind.
and most of them have a reflection time where they would
ask you to jot down your thoughts and feelings.
Yeah. Blogging to me, became like that.
AND TRUST ME, BLOGGING HELPS PSYCHOLOGICALLY.


HAHA wont elaborate further.
Anyways, 2 days left before the New Year 2012!
I think I'm gonna hang out with my friends
during the day of the Countdown HAHA
So I have got to finish all my Homework before this SAT!
CHIONG~
I've also thought of my New Year Resolution.
and this time I'm really want to accomplish this.
I have in total of 4 resolutions:


1. To achieve at least 5 A's for O lvl
2. To get into Grade 4 for guitar before the end of next year.
3. Stay committed to Workouts!
4. Be stronger emotionally.


Next year December 2012, Imma re-read this again.
And lets see what happens! Excited~

You know when you really want something,
you'd do anything to get it. Right?
But what if you reach to that point,
where things are just not within your control
and that you just can't do anything at all?


Let's say you want to impress someone,
you would find out what that person likes and dislikes,
you would spend time to understand that person's style,
you would try ways to make that person feel special.


you'd do your best to help her up when she's down.
you'd be far more patient than ever when she gives
a negative response and
you'd be there for her when she needs you.


You do all that because you feel something for her.
Because you know its worth it.


You thought you had it all figured out.
You thought that she felt the same way as you.
You thought that you were building sth strong.


Sometimes it ends up as the happily ever after.
Sometimes you alr knew from the start that it wouldnt work out.
Sometimes its that feeling after you've tried again and again
and you thought that this time, things would turn out differently
but you still end up crashing down in disappointment.


Its that point when you feel shocked.
That point when you feel like you're just not good enough.
That point when you can't do anything at all.


False hopes.


Time is running out.
Holidays are ending and it's gonna be a busy year next year.
Hope it all ends well.
"God only gives his toughest battles to his toughest soldiers"

So..... HEY!
(awkward) :B
HAHA! Merry Christmas!
I know if you're reading this right now,
it goes to show that you're #FOREVER ALONE!
So get your ass off the internet and
enjoy Christmas with your family and friends!
No?
What do you mean No?
Not turning off your comp?
Me neither :B


Haha! My family don't really celebrate Christmas.
So every year, when you guys are HOHOHO-ing
I'm just at home ZZZZZZZZ-ing.
LIKE A PIG! :D
But this year, just to get into that Christmas spirit
and also to enjoy the last few days of the "Holidays",
I've decided to celebrate Christmas Eve with a few friends!
And to be frank, even after celebrating Christmas Eve
I still haven't got into that Christmas spirit yet.
BUT EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED YESTERDAY,
WAS AWESOME. =D


I woke up yesterday morning at around 9.30 am
feeling extremely lethargic and lazy.
You know in the morning,when you're still in bed
and someone tries to wake you up,
and you have to do your signature move
the "roll-to-ignore + uuhhhhh 5 more mins moan" ?
Yeah that was how i was like. Just that
no one was trying to wake me up.
Because I was alr wide awake.
BUT I JUST DON'T WANT TO GET OUT OF BED!


So alr with a Zombie Mind in the morning on Christmas eve,
I was later called by my Dad to help out in
painting my sister's room.
Btw, painting, ISN'T EASY AT ALL!
Its a good work out for all you people
who wants to lose weight.
Im serious.
Gotta give credit to those bangala workers
who paints building.
So by the time I'm finished with painting it was alr 5.30 pm.
And I'm exhausted like mad.
I had the least satisfying bath because I had to rush
to meet my friends at 6.30 pm.
and you may think
SINCE YOU'RE TIRED, why not just don't go out?
HAHA|
1. I alr told my friends I was going
2. she was there.
>.<


On the way to town with my friends.
I was looking at the train map and thinking
" what are the odds of me meeting her? hmm"
I did ask her where she was at but she didnt want to tell me.
But I knew that was my chance to meet her.
SO I GOTTA FIND HER!
We dropped off at somerset because my friends wanted to go
to the flea market at SCAPE :D
At that time I remembered she started
dropping hints on the location of where she's at.
saying " AHH ITS REALLY HOT IN HERE!"
and instantly my mind clicked.
There's only one place that could fit that hint.
The Flea Market.
What a coincidence. Or... Fate ? :B
HAHA


As we were walking over to the Flea Market,
my friends alr knew that my major motive was finding her
and they're interested too.
because they wanted to meet her!
I told one of the my friend who is a girl,
let's just call her Grace,
I told Grace to pretend to be the girl I used to like
and be real close to me HAHA!
My attempt in making her Jealous! XD


When we reached the Flea Market,
Grace didn't know how she looked like so,
the whole time i had to keep looking,
I even turned my head 360 degrees
to make sure i didn't miss out on anyone there. LOL jk.
I was in alert mode.
But of course, I didn't want to look like someone idiot
searching for a beautiful girl hiding in the Flea market,
I wanted to be natural.
So my alert mode was not as alert?
and because of that, she saw me first.
and i was... shocked.
I looked every where. Still couldn't find her.
FAIL.


LOL In disappointment, my friends and I head back to
Artease to have our "dinner"
To add on to my disappointment, she told me that
she's "going home soon" because
her friend had to go home and she wanted to accompany her.
BUT THEN
She suddenly said she's walking back to Burger King because
her friend lost her wallet and they're hoping to find it there.
At that time, I was still in Artease and i turned around in my sit,
and i pointed, Burger King is just there...
2 shops away.
Before I could even reply " OK IM GONNA FIND YOU"
She texted me " we're now at Burger King"
hmmmmm it kinda seems like she wants me to find her XD
HAHA!


SO.. as I walked into Burger King
my heart was pounding really fast XD
HAHAHA
And there she was.
at last, I've found her.
And my god, she looks really beautiful.
I followed her and her friends around the area
in our "adventure" to find the lost wallet.
A lot of back and forths and awkward conversations.
Actually the awkward conversations came from me
cuz I kinda asked weird questions. LOL
BUT CANT HELP IT! I WAS NERVOUS YO!
and I really wanted to talk to her. HAHA


In the end, we ended up at Yishun's Police station
to file a report on the lost wallet.
LOL
If I could record a video of them at the Police station
making a report on the LOST WALLET,
I won't name the video " Report on lost of wallet"
I'll name it "Kopitiam session with Police Hunk"
LOL
they were laughing and chatting with the
Police guy rather than making a report. HAHA
The serious atmosphere just vanished the minute
they started making the report.
HAHA


After that, we encountered some strange things
and it was LOL
HAHA
One of her friends had to go home first
so after she left, me her and her friend,
the 3 of us hanged out at Mac Donald and
we just starting chatting.
Conversations got better.
She asked me questions and told me a lot of things.
HAHA


We took a cab home and I had to send her to her doorstep.
I was actually afraid that the ride with her would be awkward
but it wasn't! HAHA
THANK GOD SHE'S NOT SHY OR AT THAT TIME
I'LL DIE.
woah that rhymes haha.
So when we reached her house,
I accompanied her up the lift.


In the lift, that time, we're quiet and she's looking at her phone
I didn't want to miss that chance.
But I was also afraid and nervous >.<
I went over to  her and pretend to see what she's looking at in her phone
and then... =)
I felt really great. I felt in love haha and it was like my first time. HAHA
I wonder how you felt then.. >.<


I sent her to her doorstep and after that went home with
like my BIGGEST SMILE EVER. :D
Recollecting everything that happened that night,
I couldn't help but smile XD
I couldn't sleep when I got home haha
that night with her was the best Christmas present .
HAHA
I hope I didn't ruin the impression you have of me..=I

This Christmas Eve has got to be the highlight of my Holidays
I got to know Xue Teng and Qing Wen
and I met her!! WOOHOO
HAHA :)
So..How did you spend your Christmas Eve?

Holidays are ending soon.
The period where I rush my Homework.
Yeah Yeah,I know.
You're with me in this too right? XD
Okay then,
GET YOUR EYEBALLS OFF THIS WEB PAGE,
AND GET STARTED!
kidding~


Every year at this time when I'm left with only
2 week before the school starts,
in the midst of rushing all these undone work,
I'm thinking, why didn't I start to do all these earlier.
HAHA
Bad decision making.


I bet some of you who have completed all your homework
are now like KINGS
kkkkkkkk fine,
for all you ladies, QUEENS.
Because a lot of people would be begging for your answers!
And you would sit on that modern throne of yours
laughing to yourself.
 LIKE A BOSS.


Its a great feeling when you make the right decisions.
and everything turns out PERFECT.
But what happens when you don't?
Because 7 times out of 10,
I make bad decisions.
And even now, like recently,
I screwed up.


And after you thought that screwing up was the end
of your worst nightmare,
all the blaming, scolding, mocking, gossiping
takes place.
Its not like you wanted to screw up,
Its not like you weren't prepared,
Its not like you planned all that to happen.


And in the process of all that,
Quarrels, fights, break-ups happen.
Your friends starts gossiping about you.
Your crush hates you.
And its not like you've got no one to turn to,
Its just that there's no one close enough to you
to understand and give you advice.
You feel
torn-ed,
Hurt,
Lost,
tired.
and it all revolves around
making Bad decisions.


Ever felt that way before?
Well. I have.
It sucks doesn't it?


I remember a quote saying
" The hardest part is not making the decision,
Its living with it."
Back then, I could never really relate to the quote,
I never understood how a decision
could haunt you.
But now I know.


I've made a lot of Bad Decisions recently,
And I've cause many problems
to my friends and especially her.


Saying sorry won't help change a thing.
I guess in this society you just gotta learn to
clean the mess you've made alone.
Well all these are just part and parcel of
learning to live life
aye GOD?
I guess if all these problems doesn't come now,
it'll hit right at me sooner or later.
and I don't want it to be the time
when the stress levels are extremely high.
SO THANK YOU GOD!~


After all,
"If you can't live with the decision you've made,
go make another one."
I can feel that you're gone.